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Rikochan’s Boob Thoughts, Part I: Bigger Muscles, Smaller Boobs

Rikochan's tiny tits

I’m definitely getting thicker all over, but my boobs are looking smaller and smaller. And that’s ok!

I’m getting bigger. I’m growing. My sizes are going up. I weigh more. My thighs are meatier. My ass is rounder. My arms are thicker. My shoulders and traps are swelling. Sure, you guys are all focused on the changing size of a different part of my anatomy, and that’s cool, too. But it’s not clit growth that I’m talking about right now. I’m talking about putting on pure size as my body grows and changes with every hour I put in on the iron, every extra gram of protein I eat, every extra minute of recovery sleep I get in. I’m getting serious about my lifting again, and my body has started to change again, too. The only things that are looking smaller are my boobs.

I don’t think they’ve actually shrunk a whole lot yet, mind you. I’m still an American B-cup, I guess, or a Japanese C-cup. I don’t wear a bra, so I don’t know for sure. (I just wear nipple shields.) But as my chest and lats and back get bigger and bigger, my poor little boobs look smaller and smaller proportionally, as the same amount of soft tissue has to cover the growing slabs of muscle underneath. If and when I diet down again, I’ll have a very androgynous chest. Yes I can hear some of you saying I already have one, and that’s fine, too. But I mean really androgynous, like, “you got your mother in a world where she’s not sure if you’re a boy or a girl” androgynous. (I love that song!)

Muscle tits

I’m getting close to the tipping point where my muscles make my boobs look small!

I know, because I’ve dieted down to nearly ripped before since I started lifting (but before I started blogging and really taking pictures faithfully, sadly), and I lost my boobs entirely. Because they have always been little and because of their Asian champagne-glass shape, they literally just shrink away.

There were no tiny leftover vestigial tits the way there can be if you diet away big hanging titties. I’m most definitely not knocking that look, which I see on some of my favorite female bodybuilders who haven’t gotten implants. It’s damned sexy to me. All boobs are damned sexy to me, of course, but there’s something special about boobs that have been through some things, whether it’s bodybuilding and the dieting and hormones that go with it or just the way boobs change when you’ve had a kid or two and nursed them. I love the look of Mom nipples! More on that in Part II, though.

But I’m getting off track…The point is, when I got really skinny for the last time (so far, I mean; not saying it won’t happen again), I had nothing left but nipples and areolae. When my nips weren’t erect, I had what looked like a slightly athletic teenage boy’s chest. To be honest, though, I didn’t get to see that very often, though, as my nipples are pretty nearly always a little erect, and pretty much anytime I looked at my (to me) freaky chest naked, they poked right out and stood right up!

Rikochan muscle chest

Shadows and lingerie make me look like I have boobs still, but there’s barely enough to fill a cupped hand…

I still remember the first time my partner pointed out just how flat I’d gotten. He was a little tentative, like I might be upset about it, mourning my boobs or whatever. He was like, “Wow, your body is changing so fast,” as he leaned down and ran his fingers over my chest as I lay stretched out on the bed beneath him while he fucked me–slowly, for the moment. I knew they had gotten much smaller, but I’d been paying so much attention to my abs and my legs that I hadn’t really realized just how flat-chested I had gotten.

“It’s because I have my arms over my head,” I said. He smiled. “Try putting your arms down by your sides.” I did, and I was shocked to see that there was hardly any difference, and what there was was almost all muscle. I looked up at him, and said, do you mind, that I have no breasts right now?” And he ran his fingers over the hard muscle where my curves used to be, and said, “Fuck, no!  You’re hot when you’re soft and curvy with boobs, and you’re hot when you’re ripped and hard without them. I get to explore a whole new body. It’s sexy because it’s like I’m fucking a completely different person. Honestly, I feel like I’m cheating on old you with new you!” I know he was telling the truth, because he fucked me harder and rougher than he ever had (but not harder or rougher than I wanted him to).

Small boobs

My boobs are actually pretty close to the same size, despite how they look in this picture!

Later, when we were lying next to each other and he was stroking my muscle chest and lazily tracing the shape of my pecs, after we had caught our breath but before the throbbing glowing feeling had warn off, I asked him, “But will you be sad if I don’t stay this thin? It probably won’t last very long.” He laughed,  and pinched my nipple hard enough to make me gasp. “No! Then I’ll be cheating on hardbody you with future pinup girl you, or future BBW you. I’ll be excited all over again.”

Yeah, that was a good night. Not that I need other people to approve of my body, but, you know…it does feel nice.

Anyhow, right now I’m not in danger of getting ripped, but my boobs are looking smaller and smaller. Next week I have to interrupt my bulking to diet for a civilian photoshoot, though, and then my boobs really will start to shrink, and fast. And I’m ok with that. I’m ok with smaller boobs, though I do love big boobs, as anyone who’s read this blog know. And I’d like to have a pair someday, even if just for a while. I have an ideas about that, but it might not be what you might think. I’ll talk about it soon, in part II of this post!

 

Rikochan the Sex Worker

Rikochan in lingerie

A favorite recent lingerie purchase. If it looks a bit arty, does that mean it isn’t porn?

I never set out to be a sex worker, but I became one all the same. I didn’t even realize it until long after the fact. What do I mean? Well, let me explain.

I make porn. I sell clips of myself (and other people) having sex. To promote those clips, I write an adult blog and share lots of nude pictures of myself. The thing is, I never used to think of what I do in those terms—production, sales, and promotion—because I’m fortunate enough that I never needed to, because I don’t rely exclusively on porn for my living. I just never had to think about what I do in that way. I usually tend think of my porn as my secret art project, my hobby, my guilty (in a good way) secret, my life-saving outlet. And those things are all true. But it’s also sex work, what I do. I’m a sex worker.

Sex Worker Rikochan's hard nipples

I love the way my nipples look in this white mesh. And, judging by clip sales, so do a lot of my fans!

Just a Blogger Who…Writes About Sex…and Makes Porn Clips…and…

Conversationally, I would normally describe myself as a blogger who also happens to makes adult clips. The way I usually think about it, the blogging comes first, then the photos, and the clips pay for all the hosting and gear, with a little bit left over, which I usually reinvest into the process. In pure work terms, however, it’s the opposite. I’m a clip producer who builds community with her blog and pictures.

As I learn more about sex work and sex workers, I have come to understand that, to the extent that I make, sell, and promote porn, I’m a sex worker. What I do is most definitely work, and it’s most definitely work about sex.

Sex worker nipple hard on

My nipples are basically always erect, and especially after pumping.

Forums: My Gateway Drug

Just as I didn’t set out to be a sex worker, I didn’t set out to make porn, either. I was just looking for some people like me, for a feeling of community, and for some advice for discovering a sex life I could enjoy. At the time, that mostly meant forums. Eventually, I just started sharing pictures on forums that inspired me, as way to contribute to the community and, ideally to pay forward the incredible gift of sexuality and education I was receiving.

From there it went to sharing little clips, and then doing a little writing, and then starting my own blog, and then setting up a little clip store, and then buying my own real equipment and then, finally expanding my pool of people I worked with beyond solo clips and clips with my boyfriend.

I think that, even more than getting paid a bit for a clip or two, the first time work with people you’re not in a relationship with is the classic divider between hobbyist and performer.

Session girls are sex workers

Putting on some size; maybe someday I’ll be an FBB session girl. Also: Porn!

What Even Is Porn Now?

And so suddenly, I’m a porn producer. I mean, I’ve never made “big-budget” studio porn, and I’ve barely done any boy-girl shooting at all, but I’ve made close to 100 adult clips and I’ve posted thousands of erotic-or just plain pornographic-pictures online over the years. I’ve got a hundreds of posts on my blog, probably adding up to over 100,000 words, a blog that has had millions of views over the years.

These days, that’s increasingly what porn is, I think. The days when you weren’t really in porn unless you had a contract with Vivid or something like that are long gone, that’s for sure. I’m not dragging the people who make or made that kind of studio porn. But the fact is, the vast majority of the porn that I see people consuming these days get made by people like me. People who started small and built up their own teeny-tiny porn empires.

The thing is, though, because of the way I just sort of slipped into it, and especially because I do it anonymously, I never really thought too much about the implications in the way that you might if you went from nothing to having your face showed up on DVD covers in shops around the world overnight.

Fat Pumped Clit

Ugh, that feels so damned good…

Baby You’re Star

I always used to think that sex work meant prostitution, and I told myself, I’m not doing that. Not that I looked down on prostitutes—not at all. I only know a few in person, but the ones I know are bold and clever and brave. The same is largely true of the ones that I know online, too. I’ve never been against the idea of sex work or sex workers. I just didn’t consider myself one of them, didn’t consider myself to be like them—whatever that means. I didn’t consider myself a “real” pornstar, anymore than I was prostitute or a stripper or a camgirl or any other kind of sex worker.

In fact, my site’s name, Rikochanpornstar, was originally meant to be a kind of self-deprecating humor, a joke at my own expense. As if I could really be a pornstar! Not! In my mind, it was a way of acknowledging that I wasn’t really pornstar material, but I suspect it was also a joking way of separating myself from sex work. Why?

I always thought I was outside the world of porn and the stigma that’s attached to it, since I never had to suffer it. I thought that by existing on the margins of sex industry the way I do, I could somehow not become a part of it, but that’s magical thinking. I felt that I was something else, and I also secretly felt guilty that I had what I perceived as the benefits of sex worth, without any of the cost.

Rikochan's Giant Clit

This is why I pump. To feel and look like this.

Secrets Are Stigma

But then someone asked me recently why if I love my porn so much, I it anonymously, and I realized, I am affected by the stigma. That’s why I hide this incredibly important part of my life away and separate it from my daily life. I do it because I know that that stigma is just hanging over me, looming but at bay…for now. And that’s because no matter what I think of what I do and why I do it, at base I am also a sex worker, and the world at large despises and is deeply afraid of sex workers. When I started to be honest with myself, I realize that it’s exhausting and frightening to be something that society hates so much, even if you’re only living at the fringes of it.

Whereas my alter ego used to be a gleeful secret that separated me from other people, with that feeling of “I know something you don’t know, and knowledge is power,” now I suddenly had a new and altogether different feeling, too. Whereas before I was different from other people because of what I knew, and that secret made me powerful and happy, now I was also different from other people because of what I was, and that secret kept me safe.

I hadn’t really changed, of course. But my understanding of myself and how the world would see me had. I still do what I do for the same reasons: because I want to, because I enjoy it, and because it fills parts of me that would otherwise be empty. Yes, for all those reasons. All those reasons that are sort of almost nearly socially acceptable. Right? I mean, this is the language of creativity and art, and, well, I could argue that because I do what I do for those reasons, what I do is erotica, not porn. Not sex work.

But I’m not just doing it for those reasons.

Rikochan's long clitoris

I never would have believed I could build a whole business around my clitty…

Business Is Business

I’m also doing it to sell clips. Not because I need to, economically; this isn’t survival work for me. Rather, it’s because because I am good at it, and it’s very satisfying to make something and sell it. Business is very satisfying. Success at making and selling things is satisfying. That is not to say that doing sex work for survival is a terrible thing. It’s a great luxury I have, that I don’t need to do it, and that I love it; many people choose to do sex work to stay alive and many I’m sure, wouldn’t do it if they had some other opportunity. I understand. That’s the reality of work, sexual or otherwise. The stress of the job I do stay afloat was quite literally killing me before I found the outlets of exercise and sex work. It’s still taking years off my life, I’m sure.

Because I hate my straight work so much, I was desperate for this new thing not to be work. Yes, I used to tell myself that because I plowed nearly all the profits back into the production of my clips it wasn’t really a job, it was a hobby, or maybe a collaborative, crowdsourced art project. Sure, that might be true. But it’s also work. I like sell porn, because I like knowing that people enjoy my work so much that they are willing to pay me for the pleasure of jerking off to it.

If I’m being honest with myself, the fact that I am able to be successful at it adds a whole extra level of satisfaction to the pleasure I always let myself understand I was getting, that of exhibitionism, pleasing myself and other people, educating people, and broadening the world of porn to include people that look and think like me. All those pleasures are still there, but I’m also letting myself understand that this is work, and work that I enjoy for the sake of the work itself. I always enjoyed the sex part of being a sex worker; I just never realized until recently that I also enjoy the work part of being a sex worker.

Sexy muscle

A Sex Worker Are Workers; Sex Work Is Work

I don’t have particularly clever conclusion about about the meaning of sex work or the hypocrisy of society’s attitude toward sex workers. It’s clear to me that sex work is work; it’s the moral panic that surrounds it that makes it such a charged scary thing for so many people. That moral panic and the stigma and laws that force it underground are what makes it a dangerous, undesirable job for so many. Yes, trafficking is bad, but most sex workers don’t want or need to be rescued–except, quite often from law enforcement and the rescuers themselves.

I’m stunned at the way my understanding of both sex work and myself has changed just lately. I honestly don’t know what this will mean for my blog and my clips. I’ll keep making them, that’s for sure. Maybe now that I’m thinking about it more clearly, with fewer delusions and less confusion, I’ll do more, and do better. I don’t know; we’ll see. Like I said, these are new thoughts for me. I’m not really sure where they’ll take me.

If you do want to read some clever people with deeper, better developed and clearer thoughts about sex work here are a few places you can start.

Rikochan reclining

I give good hand, too, I’m told.

Books by People Who Know Much More About Sex Work Than I Do

Of course, there are thousands—millions—of sex workers out there who know more about sex work than I do, from the escorts, to the pornstars, to the strippers, to the clip makers like me, to the dominatrixes, to the sex bloggers, to the bodybuilding session girls (be still my heart) to the cam girls to the I don’t even know what. I could never hope to list them all! That would be another much bigger story. What I can do is give you a list of authors whose books on the subject have influenced, inspired, and educated me lately.

The first book I ever read about sex work was Naked Online: Hookups, Downloads, and Cashing in on Internet Sexploration, by Audacia Ray (@audaciaray on Twitter), a great writer who also did sex work. Even though it’s 10 years old now, it’s still a fascinating and inspiring (literally, to me) read. Although I didn’t realize it at the time, Ray’s book basically gave me the confidence to get started in online sex work. Even though I only got to go a few times, her readings series, The Red Umbrella Diaries, also introduced me to sex workers in person for the first time and showed me they were just regular people doing their jobs.

For a powerful, funny, heartbreaking, thoroughly unromanticized, yet also wildly romantic look at what it’s like to navigate relationships while being a sex worker, you should read the amazing book Prostitute Laundry by equally amazing Charlotte Shane (@charoshane on Twitter) based on her own confessional Tiny Letter about her life as a sex worker.

For an fascinating, unsentimental view of the lives of the migrant sex workers, the novel The Three Headed Dog is a great read that is free of the usual moral panic from the so-called rescue industry. It’s by the brilliant academic Laura Agustín (@LauraAgustin on Twitter), whose important book scholarly book on the subject Sex at the Margins: Migration, Labour Markets and the Rescue Industry. I am now slowly making my way through. Slowly because I’m a slow reader, not because it’s a slow book!

For a very clear-headed examination of what it means to be a sex worker, and above all how to do it without losing yourself, the new book Thriving in Sex Work: Heartfelt Advice for Staying Sane in the Sex Industry. It’s by an amazingly positive and uplifting woman who lived the life, Lola Davina (@Lola_Davina on Twitter)

For an incredibly funny but also very informative and incisive look at the stripping side of sex work the fabulous Jacqueline Frances (@JacqTheStripper on Twitter) has a great novel called The Beaver Show, the Crass and Inspiring Saga of an Enterprising Megababe, as well as a book of excellent cartoons called Striptastic! A Celebration of Dope-Ass Cunts Who Like Money. Someday I will see her onstage, whether it’s stripping or doing standup!

I don’t know if this post will make sense to anyone but me. But I hope it does. I hope at the very least a few people will click the links and discover some new books that give them a new view on Sex Work. There are so many great books on the subject. If you have a favorite or a suggestion for me, please let me know in the comments.

~Riko

What’s Up With Rikochan?

Rikochan's arms are growing

A little bit of arm progress? I guess, maybe… (from a few months ago)

Hey everyone! I thought I’d let you know what’s been going on with you lately and also share some pictures with you that I uploaded and never posted! I feel like maybe a few of you might be interested in seeing some new fetish pics, right? The truth is, I have a TON of stuff that needs to be edited, both pictures and videos for my Rikochan clips4sale studio. My problem isn’t that I don’t have things to share, it’s that I don’t have enough time to edit, retouch, and write about it.

Don't want to get blisters on my clitty

You have to prepare your clit carefully if you’re going to do some extreme pumping!

Just a note: Yes, I absolutely retouch/photoshop my pics. That doesn’t mean that they don’t show the real me. They do. At least, as much of the real me as I’m comfortable sharing. I don’t distort or manipulate them to the point where they’re untruthful, though. But I certainly adjust the lighting and color, blur out things I don’t want to share, crop to frame them better, and so on. I’m totally not shitting on people who just post pics straight off the camera or cell phone–there’s a certain rawness about pictures like that that can be really sexy and cool. But, to the (very limited) extent that I can, I want to make my pics look as good as I possibly can. And that means using Photoshop or some similar app.

Nipple suckers on a big clit

Stage one of the kind of clit pumping that gets me the best results

Anyhow, I’m going to spend a big chunk of time over the next month working on my backlog of stuff. The very next thing I’m working on is editing my next video with Mistress Treasure! It’s way overdue! She’s one of my very favorite people to work with, and I’ve been hoarding this one and trying to figure out a few new things for editing it. (I used two cameras for the first time, which caused a few unexpected problems.) I’m excited to get some more female bodybuilding videos up on my clips studio, and some pictures on here to go along with it! My last Mistress Treasure video, Big Clit Comparison, is one of my most popular clips ever.

Rikochan shows off her belly in a double-pumped clit shot

I’m fat, but my stomach is still getting flatter, right?

This past weekend I also shot a crazy hot video with a very sexy friend, Lady Clarece! It was inspired by the popular trend in Japanese AV of ecchi este, or horny massage or something like that. If you haven’t seen them, there’s a whole series of videos that basically involve women going in for a massage that turns out to be sexier than they expected. Some are seduction, some are coercion, and some even feature secret aphrodisiacs! It’s all fantasy, though–even the ones that are filmed hidden-camera style. I don’t know if any of the “acting” in this video came out ok, but it was fun to try. So I’ll be getting right to that video as soon as I finish my Mistress Treasure clip!

Huge clitoris of rikochan

This is how you make your clitoris HUGE!

If you’ve been following me for a while, you’ll remember Lady Clarece from my videos the Pouty Slave’s Lesson Part I, Part II, Rikochan Gets Fingerbanged, and Part III, Rikochan Gets Reamed. Lady C is an amazing foot-fetish domme friend of mine. If you’re into either of those things, you should absolutely check out her site, which I linked to in the paragraph above.

Long clit

This is what a big clit looks like, up close, after some careful pumping.

So, that’s the latest! I hope there’ll be a lot more to tell soon!

~Riko

Mistress Treasure Returns: Big Clit Comparison!

Big clit comparison

There are really no losers in a big clit comparison!

Hi everyone! Exciting news–at least for me! I’m finally making porn again, and I’m starting off with a bang: Mistress Treasure Returns: Big Clit Comparison! I think anyone who’s a fan of me or Mistress Treasure or female muscle or big clits might like this one!

Rikochan gives Mistress Treasure head

My favorite parts of this video (and of that day) are all the parts where I get to play with Mistress Treasure’s Gorgeous big clitty!

First, though, I wanted to say hi and happy New Year and that I hope you had a good year last year and that I hope you have an even better one this year. My last few months have been pretty challenging, but I’ve come through ok, in the end. I think 2017 is going to be even tougher, both at work and at school for me personally, and for people of color and immigrants and sex workers, too. But I also think it can be an excellent year, because I’m determined to make progress personally and porn-ally!

Big clit oral sex

Licking Mistress Treasure’s Big Clitty

I think this new clip is a pretty great start for both goals! Personally, it’s the most complicated edit I’ve done; that’s not to say it’s a masterpiece of editing or anything, but I learned a lot doing it. I’m actually thinking about taking some classes online for Final Cut (which is what I use). Anyone know of any good ones? I’d like a course that can take me beyond the basics.

Chocolate FBB clitoris

Don’t you wish this was you? I get excited every time I see this one.

Mistress Treasure!

Anyhow, this new clip…I had so much fun making it. Mistress Treasure is amazing and fun and sexy and confident and knows exactly what she’s doing, which just makes her amazing to work with. What you readers will probably care about even more, though, is that she is super hot, with an amazingly sexy body. Those muscles, that shape, that incredible shining, glowing black skin. Ugh, so beautiful. I generally feel reasonably ok about myself, but when I see myself next to her on video, I just feel like a flabby, floppy, pale and shapeless white cave fish or something. It’s like a regular person standing next to a superhero!

Big clit blowjob

Giving Mistress Treasure a big clit blowjob; it filled my whole lucky mouth.

But I only thought that afterwards. In the moment, I was just crazy excited. The fact that I got to be with her, near her, was just stunning, despite the fact that we did a photo and video shoot a few years ago. As amazing as she was in my memories, those images in my head were nothing  compared to the reality. I wanted to touch her, and touch her, and touch her again. Her skin and muscles and shape are like magnets to me. I just want to be pressed up against her, rubbing my fingers against her, feeling my palms glide over her smooth, hard muscles, like sneaking into a museum at night and touching the statue of a warrior goddess only to find that, in addition to being as hard as marble underneath, her skin was warm and velvety smooth.

Mistress Treasure's juicy pussy

That is the juiciest pussy I ever got to lick so far…

Big Clit Comparison

The basic idea of the video is that Mistress Treasure and I compare clits, and then take turns stimulating each other, and then compare again. Whose is bigger? Well, we never really establish that, spoiler—we kind of got too carried away! I especially really got totally lost in Mistress Treasure’s pussy. I think half the video is me sucking on that big chocolate lollipop (or as Mistress Treasure calls it, her gumdrop). Either way, there’s lots of footage of both of our clits, and I hope you will watch and weigh in on the comments here! We’re already planning our next shoot (maybe in March) so there will be more chances for us to really get it settled.

Stroking Mistress Treasure's big clit

Mistress Treasure’s clit is a bigger than my finger

Also, stay tuned for another video from the same shoot, where Mistress Treasure teaches me a little bit about facesitting; we have a very willing slave to practice on, taking turns smothering him with our asses and pussies!

Clit licking!

Lucky licking! Me and Mistress Treasure…can’t wait to do it again…

Rikochan’s Big Quads, Big Clit, Big Ambitions

Big Quads Big Clit

My legs are getting bigger day by day! Love my big quads! And, because, why not, here’s my big clitty, too! Click to see the pic full size (as with almost all the pictures on this blog).

I used to want skinny, coltish legs. I used to want a thigh gap. I wanted to be the one who walked knock-kneed and girlishly weak, like a sexy anime character. Big legs, and big quads especially, had a special horror for me-because I had them at one point, when I was a fat kid with muscles. (I had big shoulders that I hated, too, but this post is about legs.) I used to want to be slim and sleek and heroin chic. And I got there. I was, for many years thin enough that friends’ mothers alway used to always try to feed me up. Ever seen Aeon Flux (the cartoon, not the shitty movie)? That was me: all shoulders and sharp, boney legs.

And please understand, there’s absolutely nothing wrong with being slight, svelte, and elflike, if that is your aesthetic, your genetics, your inclination, or just where you’re comfortable being–always assuming that it’s not because you are unwell or don’t have access to as much food as you might like. I’m definitely not one to judge on their thinness, fatness, muscularity, or lack thereof. If you could see my porn collection you’d know that. Chubby girls, skinny girls, bodybuilders, I’ve got them all, and all of them make me crazy excited in their own way.

But I am pretty sure I was hurting my health to get that thin. I’m sure I was malnourished, and who knows what the fuck I did to my bones during those years. I used to be so thin that my legs were stick-like, and my pelvis bones bruised my sex partners, and my fingers recalled segmented spider legs, and my ridiculous Mongolian cheekbones looked like they were going to burst through my very, very thin skin. In those days, I had disciple and self control, and complete mastery of my body, and those were the outward signs of that complete self domination.

Or at least, that’s how it felt to me then. I still yearn for that feeling sometimes. I think about getting ripped a lot, but, for now, the desire to build and bulk is stronger. And I’ve really, really grown to love eating, too–there’s that. I’m seriously thinking about going to AVN this year in Vegas, and, the instant I pull the trigger on tickets and hotel reservations, I’m going to have to face cutting, though. It’ll be interesting to see which impulse–cut or bulk–wins out then. But, there’s no way I want to be in a convention hall full of porn stars in off-off-season shape. I’ll have to get to at least off-season shape!

Big Quads Pride

These days I’m happy to have legs that are getting just a little bit “thick” and quads that are starting to get a little rounded, and I’m excited if someone tells me my legs look “swole” even though they don’t, really. (They really, really don’t–yet.) I’m just happy that they have changed enough that people might say that, even jokingly. “Legs looking beefy, Riko!” makes me absurdly happy. Even when people tell me not to let my legs get too big, that I’m big enough, or that my legs (or any part of me, really) are getting too big, there’s a part of me that exults–after I yell at, unfriend, ban, or block them, of course.

Big Like Bakhar!

Bakhar Nabieva

The beautiful Bakhar Nabieva’s beautiful legs!

I want legs that are big, I want tree trunks, I want massively rounded bulging legs and teardrop quads. I want sprinter thighs, I want speedskater thighs, I want my legs to look like Bakhar Nabieva‘s legs. And that ass! I got into bodybuilding specifically to overcome a flat ass. I want legs that are so big that if someone did a faithful drawing of them for a comicbook, people would be like, that’s ridiculous, women can’t *look* like that. Of course, I want the rest of my body to match my big quads. Bakhar is mostly about the legs, as a bikini girl. Which is cool–the focus on legs and ass really pays off for her!

I’m a little sad that it’s getting harder and harder to find jeans that fit my legs, but I’m secretly happy, too. I feel like this is something I can really do, this is a change I can make, this is achievable. In fact, I know it is. I might never have giant peaked biceps (although I will never stop working on them!), but I’ve already had grapefruit quads as a highschooler, when I was on the volleyball team, and I’m going to have them again…

Next stop, big quads and freaky legs!

Big Clit, White Swimsuit Part III: Hitachi Orgasm

big clit, Hitachi magic wand

This attachment feels soooooo good inside…

Yay, it’s Part III of my latest video series. This one is short and sweet and it’s all in real time–there are no cuts. After all the warm up and pumping and squirting and mini-vibrator foreplay of the first two clips, my whole pussy has been buzzing on the edge of a shattering orgasm for almost an hour (trimmed down to a little under 30 minutes of video). Please understand, though…this is an outttake, as I’ll explain! You can go here to see it: Big Clit, White Swimsuit Part III: Hitachi Orgasm!

Rikochan Hitachi Masturbation

There it goes, all the way inside me…

It’s no surprise that my Hitachi with the special soft in-pussy dildo attachment I’m climbing up the stairs to cumming like three at a time. I’m too excited to even take the suit off, I have to just pull the crotch to one side and jam it into my pussy and against true underside of my big clit shaft as hard as I fucking can.

Masturbating with Vibrator

I’m jamming it in so hard the vibrator’s head is bent sideways…

There is a time for gentle and soft and slow and feathery, ticking touches, and there is a time for going as hard and as fast as you can, and worry about the bruises and sore cunt and not being able to walk or sit right later. This is was time for the second one. You can see my powerful and muscular thighs clenching and quivering and flexing as I squeeze down as hard as I can, putting as much pressure as I can on my pussy, flexing and releasing in wave after wave of delicious spasms as I get closer and closer to coming until finally I’m there flying falling spiraling spinning crashing…

Hitachi Magic Wand Thigh Power

Holding the wand in place with the power of my thighs…

Keep in mind that this is a quickie, and it’s an outtake. It’s a quickie, because sometimes you just want enough video to jerk off to before work or while your significant other is in the shower or when you’re hiding out in the restroom on a coffee break at work, am I right? I know at least some of you agree, because all those examples came from things readers have told me!

Rikochan jerks off

I love pulling my suit up into my pussy like that. UGH! I want to do it again right now!

So, I’m getting ready to shoot some more clips soon, and hopefully I’ll be working with my mistress from the Pouty Slave clips again soon. Would you guys be into seeing her make me come again, with new toys? Maybe her and another guest domme or two making me come like crazy? I’d love to do another all-girl threesome! I haven’t done one of those since I shot for Shemuscle!

Rikochan fingers her big clitty

Hitachi and clit stimulation…heaven!

Anyhow, let me know what you want to see! Lots more stuff coming soon. At least one more new video this weekend!

~Riko

Ass Wednesday, With Corset

Rikochan's legs and ass

My ass and legs in a very old picture. I hope you like it. By Point Walker Pix. Click to see the full size version.

Hi everyone! Just a quick hello again, keeping up with my post a day for the week. This is a pic from a very old shoot I did with Point Walker Pix (who is a great person to work with, if you’re an amateur who’s looking to do a sexy forced orgasm shoot). Hit me up if you’re looking to contact him!

This is one of a little series that I also shot with him on the day that I did my first forced orgasm shoot, which was a crazy good experience. I like this shot, because it’s a little more upscale than most of my shots usually are. I like all the textures and colors and little details in the picture, too. It’s a rare posed picture of me that I don’t hate–something that’s not at all the fault of the photographers I work with, by the way. I’m just really not a very good model for that kind of shoot.

It’s old, but I think my legs looked pretty good back then. I’m not sure if I should be happy with the way this old picture looks or a bit sad that I haven’t made more progress since then! I supposed most of my progress is on the upper body side and not sorry so much about my legs, which were already pretty good, relatively speaking!

So I’m writing a bit more now, and I’m always looking for more ideas. I’ve got plenty of stuff planned, but I would love to hear what my regular readers would be interested in hearing about. Let me know in the comments.

 

Big Clit Seen Through Mesh Panties

Big clit seen through mesh panties

That’s what a big clit looks like with mesh panties on!

Hi everyone! I’m going to do things a little bit differently this week. Instead of one really looooooong update every week or two, I’m going to try and do shorter updates once a day. Who knows, some of these might end up being longer updates after all, but the point is to just share more stuff with you, either way.

I’ve just got so many thousands of pictures that I’ll never get up otherwise and that just makes me sad! I’ve literally got pics from the shoot I did with Mistress Treasure a couple years ago that I never posted and now I have another whole new set coming in a day or two. That’s just a waste, I think. As long as people are still interested, I’m going to start posting more stuff and not just waiting until I have a whole long story written to go with it.

You know me, I’m still super-wordy sometimes, so it’s totally possible that I will end up writing more, but I feel like this way I’ll at least get more pictures up either way!

Anyhow, today’s shot is something I get lot requests for, big clit seen through mesh panties! I’ve been experimenting a lot with this kind of shot lately, the clit seen through mesh, the clit stretching out panties, the clit making a little tent, all that kind of thing. I’ll be posting more of this stuff later this week. If you guys like this, comment on it and reshare it on Twitter and that kind of thing and I’ll make more.

I’m going to be paying a lot more attention to what gets attention and boosts on social media over the next little while and tailoring what I write to match that, because, you know I get crazy excited by the idea of more people seeing my pictures (and, I ideally jerking off to them). It’s not like I make any money off these pictures, so please, please, please give me some feedback and help boost my signal a little. That’s a big part of what makes this fun and worth doing for me, ok?  The more you guys help me out that way, the more I will share!

Girl on Girls

Girl-on-girl with Slutty Nicole and Rikochan

That feeling when you get your very first oral sex from another woman, and it’s captured forever in a photograph… [Click all the pictures in this post for giant, high-resolution images]

There is something about girls, and the way they feel, something about women, and the way they think, something about the way they use their mouths and lips and teeth and tongues. But that’s just the start of the story.

The truth is that the real excitement and orgasmic energy I feel when I am with a woman is deeper than just the physical sensation. It goes beyond just my pure physical lust for their bodies and beyond the mental aspect of it too, that still-exciting feeling of doing something forbidden and transgressive that I adore every time I’m with a woman. It’s almost silly to have theoe feelings at his point, but I hope they never go away!

Big Clit Licking

Just looking at this again makes me horny! I need to do this again, soon!

As much as I love the idea and the feeling of playing with another woman’s breasts (I’m pretty boob focused) and as much as I love the idea and feeling of them playing with mine, the real excitement is something beyond both of these things.

I don’t have a very large sample size it’s true(or a very large sample size of guys to compare them with). And I know it’s silly to generalize. But in my limited experience, my experiences with women have always been different, on this deeper level, than my experiences with men. And I’ve been very happy in my sex life with men; I’ve been lucky to have considerate, inventive, and attentive men in my life. It’s not a question of comparison or better or worse. It’s a question of it being a different thing altogether on some level. I don’t know how else to explain it.

Big clit sucking

Mmm, you can’t know what that feels like unless you have experienced it–on either side. I’ve been on both ends, and both are amazing!

Don’t take this to mean that women are gentler, or kinder, or softer, necessarily–although this has often been true, in my experience. But not always. Sometimes it’s been the opposite. I’ve had whole shoots that I had to abandon because a mistress finger- and dildo-fucked me so hard I started bleeding.

But the thing is that even up until that moment, I felt a different kind of connection than I ever feel with guys, even the ones who know and love and completely “get” me and my body. It’s not a question of paying attention, or being familiar with me and my specific urges. It’s a connection on a different level than that. This sounds like some kind of mysticism some kind of spiritual thing, which is frustrating, because I’m so not a mystic. I believe in things I can touch, see, and otherwise sense for myself.

Big clit, thigh high stockings

Love to feel another woman stroke my clitty

And I have felt, something, there, when women touch me, do me, connect to me. I’m not sure exactly what it is. Some kind of empathy, I suppose. Could hey know what makes me feel good because of our shared experience of being women? And, by extension, could their knowledge of just how to hurt me (in ways that I enjoyed) for the same reason?

Nic licks Rikochan's long clit

Feels…so…good

I don’t know the answer, but there’s something there, and I really do think it goes beyond simple “I know what do you with your pussy because I have one, too.” In fact, I don’t even believe it’s strictly a biological thing. Since I’ve been thinking about this, I’ve wanted more than ever to have my first experience with a trans woman, because I feel like it’s going to prove this point, that it’s not at all a consequence of physicality or biological “woman-ness” but more something about a shared empathy based maybe on shared experience.

Big Clit Closeup

My clitty is just about ready to explode…and so am I!

Of course, if you’ve seen some of the amazingly hot trans women I am friends with on Twitter and so on, like Natalie Mars and Delia (who I’ve written about before), you’d know that also I want to fuck them is that they are smart, funny, passionate people and consequently, crazy sexy. But, still. It will be so good to increase my sample size to include a more diverse group of women.

I can’t wait for it to happen. And I can’t wait to tell you about it, when it does.

I hope you like these pictures from my first time with Slutty Nicole a few years ago. I can’t believe I haven’t shared them already, in the few posts I have done about me and Nicole.

Latex Doesn’t Make the Dominatrix

Rikochan and slave in latex

My latex could be shinier, but I really love how these pictures came out.

I love these pictures of me in latex dress on my human chair, but let’s be clear: I’m really not a dominatrix (in latex or leather), a domme, or a mistress. I won’t top you, beat you, or discipline you—despite the dominatrix lessons I have had. I may be tough and capable in my daily life, but that doesn’t mean that I am anything but a subby girl, a bottom, a true submissive in the bedroom. Except…

Except that sometimes it’s fun to not be me. Sometimes there’s a power and excitement and thrill in being someone else altogether. In switching roles, even if it’s just for a photoshoot or video. It’s beyond liberating, because this isn’t a secret piece of me that’s yearning to be free, which is what “liberation” means to me.

Rikochan's latex chair slave

My latex slave is a very comfortable chair!

No, although I’m having an amazing time experimenting on Rikochanpornstar and on my clips4sale studio and in my private life, most of that is about exploring who I am and who I can be, and pushing the boundaries of that person. This is something different. This is being a person who is not me. This is about submerging Rikochan completely and letting some other person, some other Rikochan take over. There aren’t secret pieces of me waiting to be revealed; instead, there are holes in me that new pieces can fit into. There are pieces of me that can be removed temporarily and replaced by new pieces.

Mesmerized in Latex

This is what I imagine it is like to be deeply hypnotized, because most of these transformations are at the hands of someone else. I’m not the kind of performer who creates a character. Instead, I’m the kind of person someone creates a character out of. I’m the kind of person who gets overwritten by a different character, for a little while. It’s such a strange and exciting and sometimes terrifying experience to let someone create a new person out of you, even for a short time. To become a doll for someone else to make new person out of. To change into a different person like that latex dress was an entirely new skin, for a new person.

The first time I ever experienced this incredible doubling in my sex life was when I shot the Gym Bullies series. The character I was playing wasn’t me, but I can’t act…at all. And so instead of me acting the part, the part acted me. I was outside my body, watching it get fucked and get “forced” into oral sex and orgasms and all sorts of things, watched it cooperate—enthusiastically, even. Before you get freaked out reading this, please understand: I knew ahead of time exactly what was going to happen that day, on that shoot. I wrote the script, and we had detailed production meetings the day of the shoot. But knowing the plot and performing the plot are two really different things. The script that I wrote was just a fantasy, not anything I ever imagined I would actually do. I loved that day. But I was also very surprised by it, and by how my brain reacted to my body doing these new things.

Rikochan in latex

I wish I’d taken a picture from behind, so that you could see all the red detail on my dress!

I Can’t Go On, I’ll Go On

I have a friend who has depersonalization disorder, and she says this sounds like just a tiny taste of like what she experiences. Except, of course, that in my case it’s a surrender of control, not a loss of control. I choose who to give up control to. I choose when to give it up. I can choose to stop at any time. Or at least, that’s what I tell myself. I’ve never come across a situation where I wanted to stop in the middle of this kind of surrender. I honestly don’t know what would happen if I did. Would I be so deeply submerged my body would ignore my brain? Would I even know that I wanted to stop?

Well. I hope I don’t have to find that out. I’m very picky about my projects and up front about my limits, and I would only ever work with people I felt safe and secure with. Mostly that means Kraka shoots me, or comes to my shoots with other people, to make sure I’m OK. I’m getting to the point in my porn life, though, where I’m getting offers to do more professional shoots that I couldn’t being him to. I’m working out ways to do this and still feel safe. We’ll see. I’m very lucky that I don’t need to do any particular shoot. I’m making porn not because I want to, but because I want to. Because I want to explore exactly this kind of thing. But, to be honest, that desire to explore becomes it own sort of need.

So. We’ll see.

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