Testing out my new computer with an older chest shot I never posted anywhere before. Hope you like it.
Hey everyone! It’s been a crazy half year. I got out of a bad living situation (a bad place, not bad people), and I made a lot of progress on my life and my financial situation, too. It’s not what I’d call great, but it’s not desperate anymore. My one big present to myself this year is my new computer, which I used to edit the picture above, and on which I’m writing this post.
I’m so happy! I can edit photos and video again! And it’s fast, too! I can use a modern version of the operating system! I don’t have to continually struggle to keep modern apps running with the small amount of ram my computer could handle!
Muscles and Tits
So, yeah. I haven’t actually shot anything this year. Moving and packing and selling and purging and unpacking and setting up and being sick from the flu and a cold and the stress from all the things I just mentioned have really been kicking my ass. But I’m getting ready to start again, finally, and so I’m flexing my muscles by getting my site software all updated, and writing this post and editing this picture, which I thought was a nice balance between showing a little muscle and giving you a peek at my boobs, which I haven’t shown off in months. Like, I don’t think I’ve posted a new tit shot this year! So, here it is, my first shot on my new computer. I shot it a while ago (April of last year). I hope you don’t mind!
Almost everything I ever did as Rikochan, and before a lot of my Krakette stuff, was all done on old 2011 iMac, which I loved, and which is sitting right behind this one, as I slowly backup the documents that are on it, search out all the stray files and make sure I’ve saved them, and generally just retire it in favor of my brand new 2017 vintage iMac (the latest model). May this one last as long!
So, for all you patient readers who’ve stuck with me, and those of you who are stumbling in for the first time from a twitter, facebook, or Instagram link, thanks for coming by to take a peek at my boobs. This shot’s for you, and there’s lots more to come!
Today it’s all about the nipple pumping! Ugh, this felt so good. As always, click the pictures for full-sized versions!
Here are some pumped nipples to say Happy April, everyone! I feel like the long horrible winter is just about over (although there is snow coming here again tomorrow, WTF!), and I’m feeling creative and sexy and horny again for the first time in a long time. Yay! You know that that means lots of porn and sexy stories to share here and clips for my store, right? The first bit is to finish off this photoset, which gets serious now with one of my favorite kinds of sex play ever, nipple pumping!
Look at the drop of milk on the tips of my pumped nipples!
I spent longer than usual with pumped nipples for this little photoshoot–completely unplanned. I pumped the hell out of my nipples thinking that was what I was going to shoot a little bit of, and then I noticed that these panties were good for a clit bulge shoot and spent forever trying to get good shots of that. (It turns out they were too tightly elastic to really let my clit extend to its full magnificence.)
Ugh, I want to to pump until I start lactating!
By the time I got back to paying attention to my poor nipples, they had begun to leak little droplets of milk! I can’t tell you how exciting that is for me…like, it’s actually a sex dream I have had, that I take a special drug, or am forced to take a special drug, or am milked like a cow so often and so forcefully, or am under a spell…all so that my breasts swell, and swell, and swell, and I begin lactating.
My pumped nipples are so sensitive I can barely stand to have them touched.
As you can see, my pumped nipples got so big and hard and swollen they looked like hentai anime nipples! When I got the tubes off, they were so hard they didn’t even feel like flesh, they were as hard as rocks! And yet, so much, much more sensitive than normal, despite not feeling real. I couldn’t stand to touch them with anything but the lightest, most feathery of touches, just barely brushing them with what would have been a ticklish caress was like shooting electricity right into them (I know, because I used to be really into electrostim!)
Getting my nipples pumped makes my clit rock-hard!
Even a mouth on my nipples was too much to bear unless it was just the lightest of butterfly kissing and the very softest of sucking, barely a hint of suction, and light mouthing of my poor, aching, bursting pumped nipples with the lips. As you can see, my clit got amazingly swollen, just as a result of having my nipples pumped. In the picture above, that’s my clit with absolutely no stimulation, pumping or even fingering. I just pulled aside the yellow panties, and, boing!, there she was…
These things can definitely poke your eyes out!
Anyhow, that’s my latest photoset! I think there’ll be more again soon. I know I’ve been neglecting all my various porn outlets for a while, but at least when I deliver it’s something pretty good, right? Well, I’ve got some pretty good things planned for the next little while, too, so please don’t give up on me!
One last pumped nipple picture to say goodbye…for now!
I’ve learned a lot over the past few years being Rikochan, writing this blog, doing my photoshoots, making my videos, and meeting people on Facebook and Twitter. I’ve learned a lot about myself, and what I am capable of, and of what it means to try new things and stretch and grow. I know, you’re here for the clits and the boobs and the muscles, but just bear with me for a minute…
My nipples are always long and hard, like little bullets!
It has been an overwhelmingly positive experience for me, even if at times it has been uncomfortable and hard and nerve-wracking. I’ve learned so many things that I can’t even put them into words. Some are just feelings, and some are ways of being, and some are new kinds of confidence. You can’t really distill those down into concrete ideas, or at least I can’t But some of these things I can put into words, and one of them is this: I love boobs.
I dream of having boobs like Rion Nishikawa’s sometimes. So big and soft…
I love them all. Of course, my deepest weakness is for the big, gorgeous ones that you can just drown in. The kind that can smother you, that you can motorboat, that are so big that even the nipples are a challenging mouthful. Rion Nishikawa is my lastest Japanese pornstar crush, and a big part of that is her fantastic breasts. I’m utterly (udderly?) hypnotized by them every time I see them.
Mine are nothing like Rion’s, but I’m okay with that these days.
Every time I have sex lately, it’s always Rion, Rion, Rion whose porn I watch to get me in the mood and Rion, Rion, Rion who’s fucking in the background as I get fucked. I look up and see Rion riding, being ridden, her huge gorgeous breasts swaying and shaking and being fucked. Sure, I still have room in my heart for Julia and Rena Fukiishi, but the heart wants what the heart wants, and right now it’s Rion who makes me hot and wet.
Annie’s breasts–and all of her body–are so perfect and sculpted, I just want to run my hands all over her. (Used by permission of Annie…thanks Annie, I love you!)
That’s not to say that I only like huge, full and round ones. I have a huge love for the muscular chests of female bodybuilders, too. I’ve written before about my love for Annie Rivieccio, and how my exposure to her in the pages of the excellent Muscle Elegance magazine helped me to understand and accept and even love my own muscular body and little boobs. I’ve bought a ton of her videos over at her Female Muscle Movies clips store, and I can’t recommend them strongly enough…they’ve got everything from lift and carry to muscle worship to full-on muscle fucking.
My boobs are tiny and I’m ok with that, most of the time.
My Boyish Boobs
I’m totally not one of those purists who complains when bodybuilders get implants (I think implants can be crazy sexy, too! I think Cindy Landolt looked great with a completely flat chest and I think she looks great with her big sexy implants, too. I do, however, have a real, serious weakness for the muscle chests of the big female bodybuilders with broad pecs and small breasts that comes with training and dieting. I’ve been thin enough myself that tits basically disappeared except for the nipples and just a hint of a curve, one that would completely disappear if I lifted my arms over my head.
My boyish, flat chest
These days I don’t want that completely shapeless preteen boy look, though; as sexy as I found the androgyny, and as hot as I find it on other people, I want something that is, for me, healthier now, something more powerful and striking. That’s why I work so hard in the gym and eat well and right and take care of myself.
Getting more muscular, right?
These days, my own chest is getting bigger, partly because I’m a bit on the fatter side right now, and partly because I’ve been training like crazy, really getting into my new powerlifting workouts. I think I’m starting to look a little more balanced, now, too. In the past, I was all legs, but now I’m starting to see a little bit more shape in my upper body, and I’m especially happy with the way my chest is changing. It’s getting bigger, and stronger, and harder…
Mistress Treasure’s big beautiful nipples
I’ve got a long ways to go before I reach the awesome size and power of Annie, or my other bodybuilding porn friend, Mistress Treasure, and I might never get there, but every time I meet up with Mistress T, I’m more inspired than ever to hit the iron, and hit it hard! I’m going to be working on editing another Mistress Treasure video this very weekend, and you can be sure I’ll be checking out her fantastic nipples! Mine are long and hard, but they’re got nothing on Mistress Treasure’s. Hers have to be seen–and sucked–to be believed.
I can’t wait until I can suck and squeeze Lady C’s big, soft, natural breasts again…
The fact that I’m working on little muscle tits doesn’t mean that that’s the only way I imagine myself being, though. In fact, I dream about having huge glorious boobs like the ones I got to suck and kiss and bury my face in when I shot my Pouty Slave session videos with Lady Clarece. They’re so perfect, and soft and heavy. She left me suck and bite them, and she smothered me with them, too.
Sucking on Lady Clarece’s amazing nipples was better than even the clit play that day, and that’s saying a lot!
That feeling of being completely surrounded by boobs, nearly crushed by them is the best feeling there is. I can’t wait to do that again, and we’re talking about shooting again soon! I know many of you loved the videos we shot, and I’m sure you’re going to like what my mistress has planned for the next set of videos even more!
Slutty Nic’s Breasts are amazing…look at those nipples!
I used to only dream about playing with big boobs like Lady Clarece’s. Since I’ve been expanding my horizons as Rikochan, however, I’ve learned to love playing with small ones, too. I had so much fun playing with the Slutty Nic’s little ones. She has amazing nipples, the areolae are huge and puffy…puffy nipples are one of my weaknesses. I love that hers have such a different shape from mine which are sort of flat and hard and champagne glass shaped. Hers are long and low, and stretchy. I loved how I could move them around and play with them and even stretch them out!
Stretching Nic’s tits was fucking amazing. I never knew they could do that!
Pinching and pulling Slutty Nic’s nipples was so exciting and sexy. I was playing the domme in that shoot, which was very hard for me (I’m a total sub), but I have to admit, the idea that another serious sub would let me pull and pinch and stretch her nipples until she gasped and moaned really did bring out something a bit more dominant in me. I really enjoyed making her feel good by being a little bit rough with her lovely little boobs. That was almost as fun as when Nic gave me a clit blow job: my first time ever being on the receiving end of oral sex from a woman. The fact that it was even close should tell you just exciting pinching her nipples was…
I think Nic enjoyed it too!
And my friend Yuka Ozaki (who has sadly retired from porn, I think) also had such cute little ones, too. I have an an amazing time sucking them, and just looking at them, frankly. When we shot When Riko Met Yuka, it was the first time I’d ever played with boobs that were even smaller than mine. Although I saw plenty of smaller ones when I was growing up in Japan, at that point in time I wasn’t thinking about playing with them, I was just being jealous of how those girls were all skinnier than me.
I learned to love little boobs playing Yuka’s cute little tits
I’m sad that I might never get to play with her cute little boobs again, but I’m glad I got to do it a couple times while she was still making porn. We were supposed to shoot one more video after When Yuka Dommed Riko, but the schedule never got worked out, and I think I got too busy with school after that. I really wish I had worked harder to reschedule that third shoot, now! We were just starting to get really comfortable shooting together, and I’d love to have played with her boobs (not to mention her crazy tight little pussy) one more time…
Sucking Yuka’s tits was so much fun!
Anyhow, can you tell by this long rambling post about playing with boobs that I’ve been too busy to have much sex lately, and that I haven’t been able to play with any women at all for months? In fact, not once this year! Writing this post made me realize that I am seriously in boob withdrawal, and that it’s time to schedule new video shoots. Any women out there who want to shoot with me, please let me know!
More videos coming soon. In the meanwhile, let me know what you think of my boobs and whether or not you think I should get implants at my Rikochan Implants Poll. Yes, I know it’s up to me. Don’t bother telling me that, I know! I’m curious what you think.
My latex could be shinier, but I really love how these pictures came out.
I love these pictures of me in latex dress on my human chair, but let’s be clear: I’m really not a dominatrix (in latex or leather), a domme, or a mistress. I won’t top you, beat you, or discipline you—despite the dominatrix lessons I have had. I may be tough and capable in my daily life, but that doesn’t mean that I am anything but a subby girl, a bottom, a true submissive in the bedroom. Except…
Except that sometimes it’s fun to not be me. Sometimes there’s a power and excitement and thrill in being someone else altogether. In switching roles, even if it’s just for a photoshoot or video. It’s beyond liberating, because this isn’t a secret piece of me that’s yearning to be free, which is what “liberation” means to me.
My latex slave is a very comfortable chair!
No, although I’m having an amazing time experimenting on Rikochanpornstar and on my clips4sale studio and in my private life, most of that is about exploring who I am and who I can be, and pushing the boundaries of that person. This is something different. This is being a person who is not me. This is about submerging Rikochan completely and letting some other person, some other Rikochan take over. There aren’t secret pieces of me waiting to be revealed; instead, there are holes in me that new pieces can fit into. There are pieces of me that can be removed temporarily and replaced by new pieces.
Mesmerized in Latex
This is what I imagine it is like to be deeply hypnotized, because most of these transformations are at the hands of someone else. I’m not the kind of performer who creates a character. Instead, I’m the kind of person someone creates a character out of. I’m the kind of person who gets overwritten by a different character, for a little while. It’s such a strange and exciting and sometimes terrifying experience to let someone create a new person out of you, even for a short time. To become a doll for someone else to make new person out of. To change into a different person like that latex dress was an entirely new skin, for a new person.
The first time I ever experienced this incredible doubling in my sex life was when I shot the Gym Bullies series. The character I was playing wasn’t me, but I can’t act…at all. And so instead of me acting the part, the part acted me. I was outside my body, watching it get fucked and get “forced” into oral sex and orgasms and all sorts of things, watched it cooperate—enthusiastically, even. Before you get freaked out reading this, please understand: I knew ahead of time exactly what was going to happen that day, on that shoot. I wrote the script, and we had detailed production meetings the day of the shoot. But knowing the plot and performing the plot are two really different things. The script that I wrote was just a fantasy, not anything I ever imagined I would actually do. I loved that day. But I was also very surprised by it, and by how my brain reacted to my body doing these new things.
I wish I’d taken a picture from behind, so that you could see all the red detail on my dress!
I Can’t Go On, I’ll Go On
I have a friend who has depersonalization disorder, and she says this sounds like just a tiny taste of like what she experiences. Except, of course, that in my case it’s a surrender of control, not a loss of control. I choose who to give up control to. I choose when to give it up. I can choose to stop at any time. Or at least, that’s what I tell myself. I’ve never come across a situation where I wanted to stop in the middle of this kind of surrender. I honestly don’t know what would happen if I did. Would I be so deeply submerged my body would ignore my brain? Would I even know that I wanted to stop?
Well. I hope I don’t have to find that out. I’m very picky about my projects and up front about my limits, and I would only ever work with people I felt safe and secure with. Mostly that means Kraka shoots me, or comes to my shoots with other people, to make sure I’m OK. I’m getting to the point in my porn life, though, where I’m getting offers to do more professional shoots that I couldn’t being him to. I’m working out ways to do this and still feel safe. We’ll see. I’m very lucky that I don’t need to do any particular shoot. I’m making porn not because I want to, but because I want to. Because I want to explore exactly this kind of thing. But, to be honest, that desire to explore becomes it own sort of need.
I love my gasmask…need to shoot with it again soon!
It’s Titty Tuesday, and I thought I’d contribute for a change! I’m usually too busy looking at what other people post on the Twitter and Tumblr and so on to put up my own Titty Tuesday post, but it’s been way to long since I posted anything at all on here, and I thought this would be a nice way to get started again!
Love pinching my nipples…the harder the better.
My Titty Tuesday Offering
I personally have little tiny, flat, and muscle-y boobs, so of course I love great big soft ones best of all. They can’t be too big for me. And nipples, I love big nipples with huge areolae–even better if they are big and puffy like Traci Lords or Julia Boin. Ugh, I get excited just thinking about it.
Happy Titty Tuesday!
I love to play with women…almost all my fantasies these days are about playing with women (although I have been getting kind of interested in doing a hotwife/BBC/blowjob/bukkake scene for a while now) and of those fantasies, the best part is almost always the parts where I get boob smothered (like I did in The Pouty Slave’s Lesson, Part I) or otherwise get a change to lick, bite, and suck big beautiful boobs.
Let Me Play With Your Titties
I don’t know if there’s anyone out there who’s excited by my little ones, but I’m happy to share them anyhow, just in case, and just as an excuse to write about how much I love to play with boobs. If you live or can travel to the the NYC area and have big boobs that you want to be featured in a video where I worship them, let me know in the comments or email me at rikochanpornstar [at] gmail.com.
Yuka had a lot of fun using sub Rikochan as her sex toy…and she liked it too!
Hi everyone! This is just a short post to let you know I’ve got good news and bad news. The bad news is that most of my last shoot, Sub Rikochan, with my friend Yuka Ozaki didn’t come out because of a problem with my old camcorder. I’m so sad, both because I think it was one of my best shoots yet and because When Riko Met Yuka and Yuka Spanks Riko are two of my most popular videos ever. Furthermore, my DSLR is 6 years old now, it’s also getting wonky, and I’ve really outgrown it, so about the only thing I have left to make porn with is my iPhone!
Getting ready to be dommed was almost as exciting as the actual event. Anticipation!
The good news is that I’ve got a little Sub Rikochan video, which I will post to my studio soon, and I’ve got some great pictures, including the ones in this post and more to come. Even better, I’m getting a new camera, a full-frame mirror less camera that will also shoot really good video. Yay! But it’s kind of a leap of faith that I’ll be able to pay for it with my existing sales; I don’t really make money with my Rikochan videos, because I put it all back into toys and props and hiring people and a little bit to help pay for training at the gym so I can look better in shoots, too.
I wore my glasses for some of the shoot! I really can’t see without them…
Respect for Sex Workers
I got into making porn because I wanted to make clips and photos of people who looked and thought like me–whether it’s sub Rikochan or female bodybuilder Rikochan–and the easiest and best way to do that seemed to be to just make clips and pics of me. I’m lucky enoughthat I don’t rely on it for my living, although I totally don’t judge anyone who does rely on porn–or any other kind of sex work–for their living. I say I’m lucky only because I don’t even people whose income is unpredictable. Actually, I am quite jealous of people whose careers are making erotic art and doing sex work, in that those are both lives that are very interesting to me, even if they are lives that I know are not easy to live in our culture. I am incredibly fortunate and privileged in my life, but even so there are things that I envy in other people’s lives…
There’s nothing better than having someone bite your nipples when you are really excited!
Investing in Porn
That’s all a very long way to get to the point that I don’t mind not having anything left over from porn, because my whole idea was to put everything I could into it, not so much to profit from it. But I promised myself I wouldn’t actually lose money on the deal. And I’ve actually been lucky enough to be able to bootstrap all my other porn expenses. Almost everything I’ve bought has been paid for with money already earned. This camera is going to be my first really big investment in Rikochanpornstar.com in a long time, maybe ever.
Yuka gave my pussy–and my big clit–so much love!
I’d Like Your Help
So, I’m going to ask for a little help. I’ll be setting up a GoFundMe that will deliver custom videos and pictures in exchange for donations, and maybe also a Patreon, too. I’m not asking for something for nothing, however–I’ll be delivering pictures and videos in exchange for your investment in me, and I’ll be able to do more and better pictures here on my blog, and I’ll also be able to put up more and better video in my store, too. As always, every bit of money that I get from either of these projects will go back 100 percent to you guys, in the form of pictures, posts, videos, porn and muscle.
Where to Donate
GoFundMe shut me down immediately! But my Patreon is now up!Please stop by and take a look, let me know what you think? I would love pledges most of all, but I’d also really LOVE some feedback. I’ll post what little sub Rikochan video there is from the shoot soon, too. In the meanwhile, of course, you can always check out my shop!
Here’s a bonus picture from the shoot. No, that’s not Yuka’s hand, it’s Kraka’s!
I think you can see some delt growth under all the fat. If you look really hard!
Before I get into Muscle Monday (and dem delts!) I just wanted to say that I’m so glad so many of you were excited by the news that I’m going to be shooting with Yuka Ozaki, and even happier at all the comments and suggestions you left! You can can follow Yuka on Twitter, too, if you’re interested in learning more about her. Please, please, please go leave suggestions for our video! We’d love to hear what you want to see. If we can’t get everything into the first video, I’m really hoping we’ll be making more than one!
Dem Delts, Tho
But today you’re here for Muscle Monday! I did a ton of upper body work this weekend, and I’m actually starting to see some real changes in my delts, lately, to the point where it’s freaking me out a little. I kind of can’t stop flexing while I touch them, to feel how hard and round they are, to the point where I’ve had people catch me doing it at work! It’s mostly good, but it is frustrating that things are starting to not fit again, partly because my muscles are growing and my shape is changing, and partly because I’ve got such a thick layer of fat over everything. I’m sleek like a seal. Winter is coming!
A little more posing for delts. And I’m starting to get a tiny V taper, too, maybe. I’m terrible at getting everything flexed at once, though!
I am definitely still into building muscle, but I really need to get better control over my body fat situation; I don’t want to be doing the bulk and cut thing so much, at least not where bulking means fat, if you know what I mean. I want to just be on a slow but steady pace of growth.
In fact, my growth is very slow. I’m sure some of you are shaking your heads at my little shoulders and saying “what delts?” But you have to remember I come from a place where any little tiny muscle is considered manly. Even men in Japan mostly have smaller muscles than I do right now. Seriously, all of the Japanese men at my office have less muscle than I do, and all of them are on diets to get smaller. One little side note: that weird white stuff on my back is just lotion. Apparently it was pretty much invisible to the eye, but the flash made it appear.
That said, I am crazy excited at some of the changes I am seeing. My thighs are rock-hard to the touch, and I’m starting to get veins popping out the whole length of my arms despite how fluffy I am. If I ever manage to lean out I’m going to be super vascular, I think.
I think you can see a little bit of muscle separation happening in my right delt (on the left side of the picture). Or maybe I’m imagining it. But I thought you all might enjoy the boobs, any case!
Two of the pictures today are from last night, and the other one, the one in the mask just above, is from a week ago. It doesn’t really show much in the way of muscle, but I think you can see just a slight hint of a separation in one of my delts. Maybe? Anyhow, I thought it was a fun picture. I think there’s at least a little pec thing going on, since that slight curve where the cleavage would be is definitely muscle and not boob…my boobs are shrinking!
Anyhow, just a quick post today, sorry…hope you liked the pictures, anyhow!
I think my back is getting a little bigger! I think if I can just lean out a little more there will be an xmas tree under there…
Hi everyone! I skipped the gym today because of a work emergency, but I’ve been working really hard lately, lifting heavy and often and trying to get more rest so that I can grow. I’m definitely still eating to grow, when I’m really meant to be eating to cut, which is a bit of a problem, but there are worse problems, I guess. I thought I would try to start a regular weekly (or at least occasional) feature here: Muscle Monday!
My upper body is finally beginning to catch up to my legs, I think. I’ve got some traps!
The idea is to post more progress pictures and to do it more regularly. I guess if I was really serious about progress pictures I’d be posting standard poses so I could compare change from week to week, and–who knows–maybe I’ll get there eventually. I hope you guys will not mind me posting more-random shots like these in the meanwhile. I think some of them are ok, anyhow, as pictures, if not really as progress pictures.
My shape is changing, but sooo sloooowly.
Muscle Monday Stats
I can at least add a little bit of information for at least a tiny bit of accountability, though. I’ll try to include at least a few numbers every time. These pictures were taken last night, October 18, 2015, and I weighed about 148 pounds. For now, my goal is to lose 10 pounds. Of course, I’ve been stuck here near this weight for a while, thanks to endless traveling and guests and so on. I can’t really blame anyone else for my failure to move my weight, of course, and, honestly, I’m pretty happy that I managed to maintain, even if I couldn’t lose. It’s been a very tough month or so.
For the boot–and butt–fans out there.
The good news is that I think that weight actually includes a little more muscle! I’m really excited to see that maybe my upper body is finally starting to catch up to my lower body! I don’t know if it shows up in these pictures or not, but my shirts are getting tighter in the shoulder, and I can definitely see some traps once in a while. And I’ve gotten comments on my arms, too! Kraka got several “Your wife’s biceps are going to be bigger than yours,” comments recently, which I was afraid would annoy him, but actually, of course, made him very happy. He’s a huge fan of me getting huge, so that helps! And it’s not true anyhow, he asks me to say. 😉
Anyhow, hopefully this will be a regular or semi-regular thing. And I promise…more big clits soon!
I love to pump my nipples until they swollen like udders. If only milk would come!
I know, I know, most of you are here for my big clit, and the last post was of how happy I am that my ass is getting thicker, and now here’s a post that’s all nipples and nipple pumping! Sorry, but, you know, not sorry, too! 😉
Nipple Pumping: Best Thing Ever
Nipple pumping is one of the best things in the world. It might be as cool looking or as outrageous and outre as my big clit and big clit pumping, but, honestly, it’s at least as important to me in real life as pumping my big bean. Part of it is that it just feels so. damn. good. In fact, nipple pumping often feels better than clit pumping. I mean, if I had to pick. They are both so good that it’s kind of an academic point, of course…sort of like a how one infinity can be bigger than another infinity. (Yes, I am a math nerd.)
If you don’t have a big clit that you can pump, I don’t know if you can ever know exactly what that pressure near to bursting, that storm of nerves firing without end, that fierce caress of suction. I don’t think you can ever really understand it. But there is a different pleasure to pumping nipples, and one that I suspect many more women (and maybe men, I don’t know) can experience. It may be a little bit less toe curlingly, tooth grindingly intense, but it’s not the least bit less strong…just different.
Close up on my fat, stretched, sensitive nipple!
There seems to be a more-direct pathway to the arousal parts of the brain. If I’m only a little bit excited and you touch my clit, it feels like nothing. If I’m even the tiniest bit aroused and you touch my nipples, on the other hand, it’s sort of like you zapped me with the cattle-prod of pleasure. I’m likely to jump, buck, moan, gasp, and otherwise react completely involuntarily. And that’s the best kind of use of the word “involuntary.” If you skip my nipples and head straight for my clit, there’s a decent chance I won’t even ever get aroused. I’ll just get annoyed and uncomfortable and stuck in my head, which is the place that I have to escape to enjoy sex.
My nipples, on the other hand…Well.
The Key to Me
My nipples are the key to everything. Of course, this assumes that I’m happy and excited and into you in some way or other, whether it’s on a comfortable level or on a good-nervous type of anticipation and terror as I try something new. That’s a given. But, if I am into this happening, there’s nothing better that you can do. Kissing is just okay, honestly, and I do like it when you run my fingers through my hair and grab my ass and run your fingers up and and down my thighs and belly, but the real switch that you’ll want to flip eventually is touching my nipples, brushing them gently, almost as if by accident. And then more assertively. And then tweaking them. And then pinching them. And then harder. And the sucking and biting and pinching and pulling and stretching and pinching, again, but HARDER. Honestly, they are so sensitive sometimes that I suspect I’d have this response even if I wasn’t into it, which is something that I’ve had fantasies about, too. (And that’s only for fantasies.)
This is how my nipples look after a little pumping!
The thing about nipples is that once they are truly stimulated, it’s almost impossible to pinch them too hard. Yes, clamps can be too hard, but a good pinch, if you work up to it, you can do it as hard as you like, and it’s just going to make me start shaking and groaning.
The same is true, only more so, with nipple pumping. While you have to be very careful not to get blisters while pumping your clit (I’ve done it a couple of times), nipples are obviously for sucking. I’ve never really been able to over-suck mine. The pleasure just keeps increasing as you apply more and more suction and they stretch and grow. I think the extreme sensitivity to pleasure and the fact that nipples are the gateway to arousal maybe has something to do with the fact that biologically they are made to be sucked, maybe we’ve actually evolved to find being sucked and nursing pleasurable. I don’t know, but I suspect. It would explain that incredibly primitive, instinctive response I get to nipple pumping, anyhow.
The Lacation Expectation
To answer the question I know I’ll get: No, I’ve never been able to bring on the milk. Just a few drops or even, a few times a teaspoon or so of clear fluid over the course of several hours of nipple pumping. I’ve tried the herbs, too. And yes, I know about domperidone/motillium. I’ve seriously considering taking the meds, but I think the side effects are too worrying. But, you never know. If nipple pumping is already this exciting, how much more so would it be with lactation? I dream about it all the time. Any of my fans and friends who’ve ever experienced lactation and made it part of their sex play, I’d love, love, love to hear from you!
Hey everyone: as those of you who follow me on Facebook, Twitter, and Fetlife know, I was recently in Japan for almost two weeks. I posted little bits and pieces on those sites, but didn’t really have the time or energy to blog (it definitely wasn’t a vacation). So I thought I’d kick off my return to blogging with some roundups of the stuff I’ve posted here and there in one spot for my blog-only fans. The things I’m most excited and proud to share are my bodybuilding progress pictures taken by the amazing Mayumism!
For all my muscular leg and high-heel fans!
As always, I find it incredibly humbling and exciting to work with a professional photographer of Mayumi’s level. Don’t get me wrong, I think I’ve taken some decent pictures myself over the years. But, let’s face it, if you take literally tens of thousands of pictures (which I have done!) even a GWC (girl with camera) like me is going to get a few good ones here and there.
But working with a real artist is another thing altogether. It feels so much more real and so much less hit or miss. I feel like a professional model myself, although one who is very, very bad at her job. I know, I’m really just an amateur, but it gives me the feeling that I’m really modeling, you know? That I’m doing something real, instead of just blogging for fun. This is fun, too, but on a whole different level. I want to have fun (and I always do) but I also want to make the very most of an opportunity that most people never have!
Hey, I’ve got some triceps. A little bit anyhow, right?
I really love that I can totally put myself in her hands. Instead of worrying about the picture, I can just worry about the part of the art that I can control: myself, and my body. When I have a shoot scheduled, it makes me work twice as hard in the gym, and in the kitchen. I think so much about how I’m going to look, and I think so hard about doing my part for the shoot, and making the most of my opportunity to get in front of a pro’s lens.
Anyhow, there’s more coming from this series I believe. I hope you like the shots so far, and I hope that if you’re ever looking for a great photographer you’ll consider Mayumi!