Hi everyone! Just a quick note to say hi and share a few pictures. I’ve been having a great time working on powerlifting, but now it’s time to take a little break and get back into my regularly scheduled porn and bodybuilding. I missed writing in here and hearing from you guys and, frankly, I missed showing off a little bit. It’s always pretty strange to me, who thinks of herself as such a shy person, but on the internet at least it turns out I’m a little bit of an exhibitionist. So it’s time to flex my porn muscles again!
From Powerlifting Back to Porn
My boobs always get bigger when I put on weight, but this time I built up my pecs too. They’ve never quite looked like this before!
I had a lot of fun powerlifting, and I actually set a bunch of person records recently at a little competition. I’ll write about that another time, though, maybe. For now, I just wanted to say that I feel strong and happy and accomplished, and it’s time for a few weeks of rest. As much as I love to lift as hard and heavy as I can, your body definitely feels it. When you hit 10 to 20 pound personal records in all three lifts on one day at an event you trained for for many months, it’s time to take a break from actual muscles and start working on my porn muscles again.
I deserve it!
One thing I’m sure of is that I’m extremely happy with the way my body changed during the lifting. I wasn’t always sure, though, to be honest. I gained about 10 pounds more than I’m comfortable with. 10 pounds of fat, I mean. I’m happy to gain any amount of muscle. I haven’t ever felt like I needed to have less muscle. More is always better for me. At least, so far! In fact, I’ve written before about maybe having bigorexia, but that’s another story!
This is by far the most muscular my delts have EVER looked in a picture, and I love it! It’s kind of a goofy picture, but that’s ok!
Anyhow, I built myself up as much as I could (I weighed a little over 160, which is a LOT of for me) as I was getting ready for my meet. Since then, I’ve dropped 10 pounds, mostly fat and water, I would say, and I’m feeling more confident than ever that I might just be kind of sexy to look at.
You what that means: porn!
First, though, I wanted to go back and look at the pictures I shot when I was at my heaviest. Ever since I first caught the photography disease when I first started posting on the Newart pumping forums, I’ve been of the opinion that you should as many pictures as you can convince someone to point the camera at you, and that you should use timers and so on when you can’t find a photographer.
Being strong and muscular kind of makes you feel like a superhero sometimes!
Even if you’re not feeling sexy, it’s incredibly helpful to have the pictures just as a document of that time in your life. You’re only going to live each day, week, and month once. You might as well examine each day, week, and month the best you can so that you can live the next days, weeks, and months better, right?
So I went back and looked at a set of a couple hundred shots from that time, just to see how I really looked. You know, versus how I felt about my body at that time. These pictures were shot about exactly one month ago as sort of test shots for my new place and my new lighting setup, and I was exactly 10 pounds heavier then.
This is just a weird shot. I guess it shows how big my legs got, and, you know, a clitty bulge.
I really didn’t love these pictures at the time, and I wasn’t expecting to feel anything but relief that I had dropped some weight. I thought I’d at least look at them for comparison’s sake, and maybe to start checking out how the lighting looked last time.
The Truth Is in the Pics
The weird thing was, I started to think that maybe these pics of me at my powerlifting heaviest were actually pretty cool. I’m pretty round, but I look pretty powerful, too, I think. And, of course, I’m not anywhere near as large as I thought I was. To tell the truth, I look more muscular and bigger now after dropping some weight, because that’s always the way with muscle and fat, once you have a certain amount.
This is what you were waiting for, right, some of you? New big clit pics!
Anyhow, they document me at a time when I was eating a lot and lifting very hard, and I thought some of you might enjoy them. It’s kind of a random selection, and I’m trying out a new system for posting on my blog, and, to tell you the truth, I feel a little bit rusty in the whole blogging and porn making thing.
Waking Up My Porn Muscles
It’s not that I suddenly got shy or prudish, it’s just that I haven’t been writing or making porn (or even really having much sex lately). I just got that busy with work and lifting. And all these things are kind of like muscles, too. If you don’t use them, they atrophy a little also!
That’s the last picture for now. But, if there are still people out there reading who want to see more, let me know and there will be more!
So…yeah, this is kind of ramble-y, but that’s ok, right? I’m flexing my porn muscles again, and getting ready to start to exercising them again, harder. I just hope they don’t hurt too much the day after tomorrow!