Hey everyone! I hope you are all having a sexy Decemeber! I’m working like crazy on so many projects and sadly only a few of them are very sexy at the moment. I hope to have some news about a new video for my fetish clips studio soon, but in the meanwhile, I want to share a bunch of my latest bodybuilding progress pics with you!
Hey everyone! No that’s not me in the picture above: I wish I was that pretty! Nope: Instead I’ve got something really special for you today. I’m excited to treat you to a little teaser post showing off a friend of mine who has agreed to write a guest post for this blog: Please welcome my friend Shai to RCPS!
Shy Over Shai
Let me just give you a little background first: I’ve been chatting with (crushing hard on) Shai for a while now. I mean: Look at her! I’ve secretly been hoping she would write something for my blog for a while. Yes, I was a bit shy about Shai…
I finally got up the courage to ask her to write for us, and she said yes! I’m so excited I can’t even tell you! Why? Because she’s is smart, sexy, funny, strong, and takes no shit, so please be respectful. I think you’ll be interested in what she has to say!
Of course, she is also seriously gorgeous, but please note that she’s not a porn actor, so she won’t be posting any nudes on here. Even so, I am sure you will be happy with the pictures she’s going to share.
Shai’s Lovely Legs
As you can see from the picture nearby, Shai has done a few bodybuilding shows, and it definitely shows. I know many of my fans will appreciate the fact that she’s got killer calves, so please encourage her to share a picture or two in of her beautiful legs (and muscular calves!) in the comments. If you’re really nice to her, and we’re really lucky, maybe we’ll get to see some more pictures of them along with her guest post.
What is Shai going to write about? We’ll just have to wait and see!
Hi everyone! Exciting news–at least for me! I’m finally making porn again, and I’m starting off with a bang: Mistress Treasure Returns: Big Clit Comparison! I think anyone who’s a fan of me or Mistress Treasure or female muscle or big clits might like this one!
First, though, I wanted to say hi and happy New Year and that I hope you had a good year last year and that I hope you have an even better one this year. My last few months have been pretty challenging, but I’ve come through ok, in the end. I think 2017 is going to be even tougher, both at work and at school for me personally, and for people of color and immigrants and sex workers, too. But I also think it can be an excellent year, because I’m determined to make progress personally and porn-ally!
I think this new clip is a pretty great start for both goals! Personally, it’s the most complicated edit I’ve done; that’s not to say it’s a masterpiece of editing or anything, but I learned a lot doing it. I’m actually thinking about taking some classes online for Final Cut (which is what I use). Anyone know of any good ones? I’d like a course that can take me beyond the basics.
Anyhow, this new clip…I had so much fun making it. Mistress Treasure is amazing and fun and sexy and confident and knows exactly what she’s doing, which just makes her amazing to work with. What you readers will probably care about even more, though, is that she is super hot, with an amazingly sexy body. Those muscles, that shape, that incredible shining, glowing black skin. Ugh, so beautiful. I generally feel reasonably ok about myself, but when I see myself next to her on video, I just feel like a flabby, floppy, pale and shapeless white cave fish or something. It’s like a regular person standing next to a superhero!
But I only thought that afterwards. In the moment, I was just crazy excited. The fact that I got to be with her, near her, was just stunning, despite the fact that we did a photo and video shoot a few years ago. As amazing as she was in my memories, those images in my head were nothing compared to the reality. I wanted to touch her, and touch her, and touch her again. Her skin and muscles and shape are like magnets to me. I just want to be pressed up against her, rubbing my fingers against her, feeling my palms glide over her smooth, hard muscles, like sneaking into a museum at night and touching the statue of a warrior goddess only to find that, in addition to being as hard as marble underneath, her skin was warm and velvety smooth.
Big Clit Comparison
The basic idea of the video is that Mistress Treasure and I compare clits, and then take turns stimulating each other, and then compare again. Whose is bigger? Well, we never really establish that, spoiler—we kind of got too carried away! I especially really got totally lost in Mistress Treasure’s pussy. I think half the video is me sucking on that big chocolate lollipop (or as Mistress Treasure calls it, her gumdrop). Either way, there’s lots of footage of both of our clits, and I hope you will watch and weigh in on the comments here! We’re already planning our next shoot (maybe in March) so there will be more chances for us to really get it settled.
Also, stay tuned for another video from the same shoot, where Mistress Treasure teaches me a little bit about facesitting; we have a very willing slave to practice on, taking turns smothering him with our asses and pussies!
Hi everyone, I’ve got a couple very cool shoots coming up in September, and I’m excited to tell you about them! The first one, in about two weeks, is a return engagement with the amazing Mistress Treasure! I’m so excited to see her again! And I’m so glad to shoot with her again, too. I’m actively planning the shoots right now, because this all came together pretty close to the last minute. Like, we just decided yesterday!. In fact, since I’ve got so little time to do the planning, I’m asking all my fans to tell me what they want to see in the video. Details are at the end of the post!
Just a little background for Mistress Treasure is the last female bodybuilder I ever worked with, and I haven’t seen her for about three years! She was in amazing shape then (I got to worship her muscles!) as you can see from these pictures in this post, which are from that shoot, though I’ve never shared them before. Yes, I hoard pictures for literally years. I’ve got great stuff from like 10 years ago that I’ve never shown anyone. Mostly it’s a question of time…I just never have enough.
Anyhow, a LOT of you bought the two clips we shot that day, Rikochan’s Muscle Worship With Mistress Treasure and Rikochan’s Dominatrix Lessons With Mistress Treasure, so I know that at least some of you know what I’m talking about, but that day was amazing for me. It was the first real chance I had to really get a good look at a super-muscular woman and to really have the luxury to really touch and kiss and caress her.
Sure, I worked with Ashlee Chambers and Darkside Milinda at Shemuscle, but that was a few years earlier when I honestly didn’t know what I was doing. I was so nervous about being on a set and shooting with two women for the first time (it was my first time shooting with any women, for that matter) and my first time getting fucked with a strap on, my first time doing even a light BDSM scene… There were so many firsts that day, that my first time working with female bodybuilders sort of blurs into all of them. I love rematching that video, and I know that I was amazed by the two of them, but, as I wrote earlier, that day was so intense for me that it was more like an out of body experience than something I actually lived.
Anyhow, it was different with Mistress Treasure. The shoot was more relaxed, and this time the the photographer was an old friend and my other costar was Kraka, first of all. And, second of all, Mistress Treasure is just a generally really sweet person. (Though she can be a very strict dominatrix!) I really got the chance to relax a little bit and take in the amazing strength and power and sexuality of her. She was smart and sexy and strong, and I realized that I really wanted to be like her, in all those ways. I mean, I could never be like her, I’m a completely different person. But I wanted to absorb some of those things from her. I wanted to be more relaxed and have more fun in my play. I’m so amazingly stiff in that video compared to her, it’s incredible. But I also wanted to be more like her physically. I wrote before about how looking at pictures of Annie Rivieccio in Muscle Elegance had given me a whole other idea of how to be a woman, a strong, sexy woman. But this…this was that idea in the hard, striated, powerful flesh.
I’ve grown since then, both as person and physically. I’m bigger inside and outside. Part of that, I really think, is because of that day. So, you can see why I’m so eager for a second day shoot with Mistress Treasure. You would be too!
This shoot is happening in just about 2 weeks, and I usually spend about 2 months agonizing and thinking about any clip I shoot if it isn’t just a spur of the moment sex clip. So I’m going to need some help on this one! What I really, really want is a suggestion from you, my fans! After all, you’re the ones who will (hopefully!) buy this clip or watch it on Mistress Treasure’s excellent site. This is your chance to tell us: What do you want to see. It can be as simple as “muscle worship!” or “More facesitting please!” or “How about a big clit comparison and measuring clip?” or you can post a complete treatment, with a shot list and everything. All ideas are welcome, and we’ll at least consider them all!
So, please: Let me know!
I love these pictures of me in latex dress on my human chair, but let’s be clear: I’m really not a dominatrix (in latex or leather), a domme, or a mistress. I won’t top you, beat you, or discipline you—despite the dominatrix lessons I have had. I may be tough and capable in my daily life, but that doesn’t mean that I am anything but a subby girl, a bottom, a true submissive in the bedroom. Except…
Except that sometimes it’s fun to not be me. Sometimes there’s a power and excitement and thrill in being someone else altogether. In switching roles, even if it’s just for a photoshoot or video. It’s beyond liberating, because this isn’t a secret piece of me that’s yearning to be free, which is what “liberation” means to me.
No, although I’m having an amazing time experimenting on Rikochanpornstar and on my clips4sale studio and in my private life, most of that is about exploring who I am and who I can be, and pushing the boundaries of that person. This is something different. This is being a person who is not me. This is about submerging Rikochan completely and letting some other person, some other Rikochan take over. There aren’t secret pieces of me waiting to be revealed; instead, there are holes in me that new pieces can fit into. There are pieces of me that can be removed temporarily and replaced by new pieces.
Mesmerized in Latex
This is what I imagine it is like to be deeply hypnotized, because most of these transformations are at the hands of someone else. I’m not the kind of performer who creates a character. Instead, I’m the kind of person someone creates a character out of. I’m the kind of person who gets overwritten by a different character, for a little while. It’s such a strange and exciting and sometimes terrifying experience to let someone create a new person out of you, even for a short time. To become a doll for someone else to make new person out of. To change into a different person like that latex dress was an entirely new skin, for a new person.
The first time I ever experienced this incredible doubling in my sex life was when I shot the Gym Bullies series. The character I was playing wasn’t me, but I can’t act…at all. And so instead of me acting the part, the part acted me. I was outside my body, watching it get fucked and get “forced” into oral sex and orgasms and all sorts of things, watched it cooperate—enthusiastically, even. Before you get freaked out reading this, please understand: I knew ahead of time exactly what was going to happen that day, on that shoot. I wrote the script, and we had detailed production meetings the day of the shoot. But knowing the plot and performing the plot are two really different things. The script that I wrote was just a fantasy, not anything I ever imagined I would actually do. I loved that day. But I was also very surprised by it, and by how my brain reacted to my body doing these new things.
I Can’t Go On, I’ll Go On
I have a friend who has depersonalization disorder, and she says this sounds like just a tiny taste of like what she experiences. Except, of course, that in my case it’s a surrender of control, not a loss of control. I choose who to give up control to. I choose when to give it up. I can choose to stop at any time. Or at least, that’s what I tell myself. I’ve never come across a situation where I wanted to stop in the middle of this kind of surrender. I honestly don’t know what would happen if I did. Would I be so deeply submerged my body would ignore my brain? Would I even know that I wanted to stop?
Well. I hope I don’t have to find that out. I’m very picky about my projects and up front about my limits, and I would only ever work with people I felt safe and secure with. Mostly that means Kraka shoots me, or comes to my shoots with other people, to make sure I’m OK. I’m getting to the point in my porn life, though, where I’m getting offers to do more professional shoots that I couldn’t being him to. I’m working out ways to do this and still feel safe. We’ll see. I’m very lucky that I don’t need to do any particular shoot. I’m making porn not because I want to, but because I want to. Because I want to explore exactly this kind of thing. But, to be honest, that desire to explore becomes it own sort of need.
So. We’ll see.
Hey everyone! I just wanted to tell you I’ve got a new video up again: When Riko Met Yuka, Part I! I excited for this one for a couple of reasons. The most obvious and important reason is that I get to show you all a video of me getting a big clit BJ from the super-cute and super sexy Japanese porn actress Yuka Ozaki! And I’ve got a ton of pictures we shot at the same time, the best of which I’m sharing in this post! I’m still so crazy excited about that shoot! But more on that in a second.
The second reason is that this is my fourth video for 2015. I know, that doesn’t sound like a lot, but I only made five videos in 2014, and now I’ve posted two in about two weeks! I’ve got enough video shot for at least three more this year, fingers crossed, so I should be able to at least beat last year. I’m really hoping to get to ten videos this year, but that might be a bit ambitious, since my day job is getting completely crazy right now. Still, it’s a fun goal!
Big Clit BJ (and Much More)
To be honest this shoot was kind of a clusterfuck, but a very fun one! I was so nervous, but my producer (I’ll call her Ms. Big, for now) and Yuka made things much more relaxed and easy. Between them they really took charge of me (which is what I like) and of the video. When Yuka started licking and sucking on my clitty, I was able to completely relax to the point where I just about forgot that I was fucking on video and just really relax and enjoy the feeling of her soft lips and clever tongue doing things to me that I never had another woman do to me before.
There’s no real big squirting money shot in this video (sorry!), but you can see in couple points that Yuka is wet and the sheets are wet, too. When I was standing above her and she was giving me a big clit BJ (in the picture below), my pussy was gushing pretty much continuously, though, and when we started tribbing, I was basically squirting onto her pussy the whole time! I was actually really nervous that that might freak her out, but she took it like the pro she is, and I think she kind of enjoyed making me squirt, actually!
Ms. Big and Yuka were great, but Kraka and I aren’t really used to shooting two people so things were super chaotic. We were nervous and really wanted to make sure Yuka was okay, and so we went way too fast and didn’t have nearly enough coverage, and not nearly enough different angles and takes. I had thought to make three ten-minute clips out of this, but when I looked at what we had afterwards, I decided that to just edit it down to one video of~14 really good minutes or so. This video probably won’t make its budget back as quickly as we had planned, but we’d rather make a good one that makes fans happy than a couple so-so ones that don’t leave them wanting more!
A Little Bit of Everything
I think it was the right way to go. When Yuka Met Riko Part I has a little light muscle worship, first of all. Yes, I’m the bodybuilder in this one! It’s soooo strange to be the big one, and I’m way bigger than Yuka who is absolutely tiny! I was actually pretty happy with how I looked in this one…you can even see some biceps in it, although my posing is ridiculous! And there are a couple different positions of Yuka giving me oral and finger fucking me and even fucking me with a favorite dildo of mine.
There’s also a nice bit of me giving Yuka oral! Real muff diving and clit licking! Yuka’s clit is too little to really give a big clit BJ, but I definitely had her moaning on the tip of my tongue! It’s the first time I’ve ever played with another pussy for more than a few seconds! Finally we do a little tribbing (scissoring; tribbing is a new word for me!) with a Hitachi Magic Wand held between us to finish things off. So, while I didn’t get nearly as much footage as I thought I would, I’m very happy with the video. All the bits could be longer, but I think you definitely get your money’s worth in just 14 minutes! For me, the big clit BJ alone makes it worth it, but there’s lots more there.
The Next Time I Fuck Yuka
Next time (I’m definitely already planning my next shoot with Yuka) I want to really slow things down. Yes, I love, love, loved the big clit BJ, but I also want leisurely shots of kissing and moaning and groping. I want nipple pinching and stretching and biting, and our boobs pressed together, nipples flicking each other like rubbery thorns. I want her to sit on my face and smother me with her delicious little pussy! I want to see my clit sliding in and out of her lips as I sit above her, my big body overpowering her little one. Basically, I just want more, more, more!
Yes, I’ve got plans. In the meanwhile, I’ve got a little more Yuka video to share, but a totally different kind of thing…you’ll see! And I’m going to post a bunch of screen caps from the video, too.
Anyhow, I hope you enjoy the video. I really, really enjoy and appreciate your support, both in buying the clips so that I can afford to make more and in spreading the word on facebook, twitter, and tumblr so that more people get exposed to my own special silly sexy brand of porn…
Hi everyone! This is just a quick note to tell you how excited I am to post this picture of me by Mayumism! It’s not so often that I feel like a work of art, but when I see Mayumi’s pictures of me, I do! This was supposed to be an Ass Wednesday post, but I’m so incredibly slow and lame, that here I am a week and a half later posting it on a Sunday, but I guess no one will really mind, right?
There’s a special reason why this picture makes me so happy. Unless you grew up as a flat-butt Asian girl who desperately wanted to have an ass, you probably can’t imagine how exciting it is to see a picture of yourself where you have, if not a badonkadonk, then at least a booty! And a picture like the one at the top, that positively objectifies my bum? Pure heaven!
I mean, it may not be a juicy double, but I think it might qualify as a juicy single, at least. For me, it represents literally hundreds of hours and thousands of sets of squats, deadlifts, thrusts and more, working day after day after day at the gym to build up my rump!
If I could get my fat to go to my booty and not my belly, I’d be eating twice as much as I do now, but I am not genetically gifted in that way. My (relatively) “easy” muscle tends to be more in my calves, which I used to actually cry about when I was much younger.
Eating more just gives me an old-lady pooch. I don’t even get muffin top, really, which would be a step up. Nope, straight to that old lady does-she-not-do-sit-ups-or-is-she-pregnant-but-no-it’s-the-wrong-shape pooch. I mean, if I had it because I’d destroyed my abs carrying twins or something, but, no, it’s just bad genes.
So I can only come by an ass through lots of hard work. And only a specific kind of hard work: weights! When I was a cardio bunny, my butt got even flatter, I went from the dread Asian flat butt to the even flatter distance-runner’s butt.
Butt, no more! These days I still have a long before I reach the coveted high-round-shelf-butt-you-could-rest-a-glass-on ass. Butt I’m a lot closer than I ever have been. I hope you enjoy my bum and I’d love to hear what you think!
Hi everyone, this is just a quick update, with a couple little bits and pieces in it to let you know what’s going on with me these days.
Full Body Rikochan!
First of all, I couldn’t resist posting right away because I have such a cool picture to share from a shoot I did a while ago with Mayumism! The images are starting to come in and I’m very happy to see them, as always! I think this is a pretty fun shot: we were playing with different bodybuilding and cheesecake poses and I think this one came toward the end when were just sort of relaxing and having a little more fun. I’m a terrible model and it takes me forever to loosen up for a shoot, if I ever do at all!
Anyhow, this is the first time I’ve had a chance to see a good full-body shot of me in ages! The picture is very cool, I think, and I think I look…ok, anyhow. This is several months ago by now, and I think I am both thinner and maybe a little harder and bigger now–at least, I hope I am. I’ve been working really hard! But I like the look of this shot, anyhow, and I can see some progress there from the last time I saw my back. And, hey I have a bit more of a booty these days, that’s new! Full body shots are my least favorite thing to see of myself, but I like this one. Of course, It always helps to work with a great photographer!
Rikochan Tribute Button & Rewards
The other thing I wanted to mention was that I got my first ever tribute through my clips4sale store! No ever actually contributed that way before, and I was honored, surprised, and thrilled. It was a very nice contribution from a fan who wanted to ask me some questions, and we’re just starting a very interesting conversation about my orgasms.
I always do my best to answer comments and Facebook questions, of course, but sometimes people want a little more than I can give without taking time away from making blog posts and videos, which are how I support this site. Now, I’m not looking to make piles of money from Rikochanpornstar.com, and I put every thing I make from it back into cameras, sex-toys, Web hosting fees, pay for photographers, and so on. So it becomes a bit of a balancing act to be able to keep talking to people without neglecting the parts of my site that actually pay for my site. I spent an hour answering comments here and on Fetlife today, when I probably should have been editing video!
I’ll always do as much as I can to talk to people who write me; that’s part of why I do this! But it’s always going to be on the same I’ll answer when I can basis that it’s always been. Sometimes I’m online every day for hours at a time for a whole week, and sometimes I just can’t get back to Rikochanpornstar for weeks.
So, if you have questions you just can’t wait to get an answer for, or if you want a little more of my time than you might otherwise get, well, the tribute button is one way. Nothing is off-limits, with three exceptions: I’m not going to give up my anonymity: no face pictures, and I’m not telling about my day job or where I love! I’m not an expert on steroids or hormones, so please don’t ask me about them. And I’m not going to talk about anything that would get me in legal trouble. You saw Citizenfour, right? Oh, and, be aware, anything I write might end up on here in one form or another. You can specify if you want me to keep your side of the conversation and your handle secret or not!
Other than that, I don’t have any real rules or guidelines yet. Who knows, maybe no one else will ever be hit the tribute button again and it won’t be an issue. But, if you’re interested, it’s there! Just go to my clips4sale site and hit the Tribute button.
Anyhow, back to work, hoping to be able to share some other cool new stuff with you soon!
Hi everyone! I’m back from almost two weeks of vacation in the vanilla world, and, wow, I am glad to be back! Of course, since I know you are all waiting for sexy pics, I’ve got a little collection for you from my trip! If you follow me on Twitter, Facebook, or Fetlife, you’ve already seen a little more than half of these mobile porn and progress pictures. If you don’t follow me on some kind of social network, you should! Day-to-day, that’s where you can find me. I visit and post on Facebook the most frequently by far, but I can’t publish the fully X-rated versions of my pictures there, so I usually just post a link to them one of my other social networks.
If you want to hear my daily chat (which can range from a lot to nothing at all) and get links to my pics, follow me on Facebook. If you just want porn and links, follow me on Twitter (or Fetlife, if you’re there). Anyone can follow me on Facebook, and I am pretty accepting of new friends, too, unless your stream is super full of hate or intolerance! The second through sixth pictures below are cell-phone pictures that I posted during my vacation. The picture at the top is a bonus (also a cellphone picture, are all these pictures, except the last two) so that the people who already follow me will have something new to see. The last two pictures are one month older. One showed up on social media and one from the same day shows up here for the first time.
Anyhow, I’m sooo glad to be back and able to blog and look at porn without worrying that my vanilla family and friends are going to see it over my shoulder or on my phone. But that’s not to say I didn’t look at a TON of porn, and even make a little too. The family in question was older, and the pace of the vacation was…slow. But I trained a lot, and I slept and ate a lot, and I still had a lot of time sitting around to browse and make porn and bodybuilding pictures and videos.
I think this might be my first vacation in ages where I ended the week in better shape than when I started it. I put on a little fat, sure (there was cake made from scratch), but I lifted crazy amounts, doing super-high volume, heavy kettle bell workouts for a good part of the time. Maybe most important, though, is all the sleep I got. With no work and no cats to wake me up, I got a minimum of eight hours of sleep a night (sometimes ten!), and I could feel it doing good things to me! I grew! I could feel myself growing! I also felt sooo much less sore and achey after even the hardest workouts…way less than I would have on my normal 5 to 6 hours of sleep a night. I know, it’s not enough. I know, believe me, I know.
I’m making a real effort to get more sleep since I’ve come back. My sleep cycle is all messed up, though, and it’s made me miss a couple of gym days this week, which makes me crazy. Kraka (who is a morning person–I’m not) is going to get me up for the next couple days until I am back in my groove. I can still get in all my workouts for the week, with a couple 2-a-days, and and I’m determined to make it!
As you can see above, I didn’t just post bodybuilding progress pictures. There was some big-clit fun, too. The color on those two is a little funny, and I thought about correcting it in Photoshop, but then I decided that these pictures have already been posted, and I was happy enough with them as mobile pics, and I’m going to let them stand. Anyhow, I think the people who are likely to like this kind of picture are going to forgive the color balance because giant clit! I think I’m looking pretty huge in these, right? I think it’s partly the angle, because I’m sure I’ve been pumped up bigger than this (these are unpumped by very, very excited). But maybe not by much!
Finally, the picture above and the picture below are a couple of pictures from February. Not bad for a Japanese girl, right?
Anyhow, I had a good vacation, and I’ve tons of pictures to share and ideas about things to write about. It’s funny how getting some rest can really recharge you, right?
Things are crazy right now. I’m burned out and confused and pulled in too many directions at once. It’s a hard time. Personally, professionally, and even here in the normally safe and fun world of Rikochanpornstar.com, I’ve got some weird things happening.
Nowhere to Hide
But, like always, it’s in these strange times that interesting things start to happen, too. I’ve got a great opportunity at my day job that might really change my life…if it happens. At the very least, I’d be able to stop working the horrible hours that are keeping me away from you and my site and my videos. And I’ve been approached to work with a very interesting agency that might help me take my site to a new level, and maybe get me working with some cool people, and sites, and even magazines, too. I’m hoping that some pictures I took with Mayumi (like the one above) might appear in some interesting places sometime this year.
Both of these are things that might turn into something; neither one of them are guaranteed to be right for me. It’s impossible to know now, and I’m in that weird state where I don’t want to hope for too much with either one, in case they don’t work out. The problem is that usually I can use work to hide from the stuff in my private life when it gets tough, and I can use Rikochanpornstar to hide from the stuff in my work life. Right now, I feel like both of the places I usually hide are compromised. My hiding places aren’t working!
Escape Into Bodybuilding
Luckily, I have a third place: the gym. I can’t tell you how hard I’ve been working these days. It’s always my physical outlet, but lately it’s really been filling in for all my mental outlets, too. It’s amazing how much harder you can go when you are determined. I always thought I was giving it everything when I went, and that my real problem was consistency and diet. But since I’ve been relying on the gym more for my mental wellbeing, too, I’ve discovered that I am able go so much harder than I thought.
I find myself shaking and sick at the end of workouts, completely soaked in sweat every time. I get so far into the zone that I hardly notice the people around me. I’ve had coworkers tell me that they said hi to me in the gym and that I completely didn’t hear them. And it’s not that I’m wearing headphone, either; I’m just…focused.
My latest workout works really well with this focus, it’s high volume with very little rest: perfect for really losing yourself in it. I’m doing a workout from Simply Shredded, from the fantastic WBFF Pro Fitness Model Andreea Tina, and wow, I can see results! I mean, I don’t look anything like Andreea, but I can see myself getting there someday, which I never really could, before. I always had a goal body, but I never actually thought I’d like like those women. They were an aspiration, but it was like aspiring to be a superhero. I could use these women as motivation, but I knew I’d never actually look like them. It just wasn’t in my genetics, I wasn’t motivated enough, I didn’t have the time, I was too old, I didn’t have the talent, I didn’t have the desire, I. Just. Wasn’t. Good. Enough.
A New Feeling
For the first time in a long time, though, I’ve started feeling…different. Like, I can kill any workout, crush any goal, be anything. I’m working hard and doing a good job, and it is starting to show, and it’s starting to make me feel…good. I feel like I am in control of something, I am accomplishing something, I am good at something. That’s such an amazing, powerful feeling, and it’s a feeling that grows, that expands out into your life. If you feel like you’re good at something, that you are good at something…maybe you could be good at something else, too? Maybe many things. What a crazy idea. Who knows where it might end?