Let me say right at the beginning that I love porn. I love every part of it. Everything from homemade hardcore to the crazy s&m stuff they shoot at Kink.com and even the super-hard forced orgasms they at Sexually Broken to Andrew Blake slow-motion erotica to the sweet girl/girl next door erotica they shoot at Girlfriend Films. The same goes for photography–I can be just as happy looking at badly lit cell phone pictures on Fetlife of raw, real sex as I can be ogling the most perfectly retouched Playmate.
Hardcore and More
And I like to make all kinds of porn, too. I love the raw, amateur look of my homemade porn. I’m not at all ashamed of the down-and-dirty clips I make, and judging by the feedback I get, other people enjoy them, too! Yes, I would love to shoot in a higher-end, Andrew Blake style movie with a gorgeous model like Justine Joli or Jelena Jensen or Aria Giovanni. I’m afraid that I’m such a shy and terrible actor that I’d be bad at it, but I’d love to try just the same. Maybe a good director could make me look good? Anyhow, it’s a dream, to make some erotica to go with my porn. Maybe someday…
The same goes for the pictures I post. Some of my favorite shots ever of me are just cellphone snapshots taken right in the middle of actual fucking. I love that realness, even if the pictures aren’t very well composed, if the lighting isn’t right, even if the focus is a little off. I just think there’s something about them that comes through–the actual sex, if you know what I mean. I mean, of course for me, I can actually remember (sometimes anyhow!) the moment they were taken, and I can feel all those feelings again, or at least the echo of them. And from what people tell me, they’re sometimes able to feel a little bit of that sexual energy, too. But I also yearn for glamor and pin-up shots and the naughtiness sexiness of the Camera Club-style ’50s Irving Klaw stuff.
Going for Glamour
Here, at least I don’t have to only dream. I’ve been lucky enough to work with some really good photographers, and one of the best whose work I can share is Mayumism! Mayumi always makes me look so good, and we’ve started shooting some glamour work in her style, and I love it! She’s got great ideas, and she always makes me look good, finds angles and poses and lines that I didn’t know I had in me. That’s the difference between working with a GWC and a real artist; you’re just a part of their vision, and they can show you new sides of yourself. This shoot, in which we were trying to really evoke something a little different, a little more old-fashioned, was hard for me, in some ways, because I don’t see myself that way at all. In my eyes, I am big and awkward and square and I have no sexy lines or curves of the cheesecake kind.
But somehow, working with Mayumi on this latest shoot was actually very fun–I got to make art in a piece of art, a very lovely old lived-in Eames chair. It’s amazing how the right prop can really help you get into the mood of the shoot. For me it’s usually a spreader bar or something extreme like that. I mean, as a prop, havin a clit pump attached to you really does change your head space. I just never expected that a gorgeous antique chair might do the same thing.
I can’t tell you how fun it was to be thinking and talking about posing like Bettie Page on this classic piece, the soft, scarred old leather cradling my skin as I tried to find suggestively sexy poses. It’s surprisingly hard if all you’ve made is kind of extreme porn to think of ways to be alluring without showing all the goods! Eventually, however, I was able to get more relaxed than usual, and I think the pictures show it. The one above is my favorite yet from this series, though I’ve loved the other Rikochan erotica in this series, too!
This picture is from several months ago, so my body looks different (and better, I think) now, but I’m still so happy with how my legs look in my sexy stilettos! I hope you like the picture, and I hope you’re looking forward to the next shots as much as I am!