Reevaluating Rikochanpornstar.com

 

Alt porn girl Rikochan wears a mask

Rikochan’s Fetish Mask

I’m never been big on New Years’ resolutions—I’m too ready to accept things the way they are. But this year I learned that the easy path can lead to rough places. Creating Rikochanpornstar was one step I took to try a different path, one that’s made me happy. But I know now that I can’t afford to be complacent, about even the things I’ve done to shake up my life. So I’ve been thinking a lot about this blog, what it means to me, and where I want it to take me.

I created Rikochanpornstar to track my physical and mental progress toward my first real adult shoot, at shemuscle.com. I’d reached a point in my life where I felt like I wanted to do something big and different and new. I wanted to challenge myself to step outside my comfort zone. Way outside. I wanted to make the kind of erotica I want to see: about women who aren’t ashamed to be strong or sexy. I wanted to remake myself physically and to talk about how that felt. I’d write about what I found sexy, in my personal life, in the mainstream and in the pornosphere. Because I’d never really examined what I thought was sexy in that way, and to be sexy, you have to understand sexy, I think.

I’ve made progress. I’ve written about myself. I’ve posted explicit pictures. And I’ve posted bodybuilding progress pictures. I’ve posted 80 minutes worth of clips to my clips4sale studio, Rikochan’s Big Clit. And I’ve posted about my fetishes, like my huge clitty (obviously), electrostim, clit pumping, and squirting. I’ve made a good start, and people have been nothing but positive about my sporadic posts. But, let’s face it, there really haven’t been so many of them, and the number I’m proud of is even smaller. Why?

I’ve had two problems. One was a horrible summer and fall bringing huge problems to sort out in my personal life. Find solutions required vast amounts of time and thought. But “life” is a terrible excuse for not creating, writing, blogging…experiencing. I haven’t let life get in the way of creating a new body—I’m in the gym five days a week, lifting hard, eating right. So I’m not going to let it get in the way of creating a new kind of thinking either. I’m finished with that excuse.

The bigger problem has been opening up. That probably sounds funny, given how raw this blog is. But it turns out that the part I thought would be hard—showing my bits and talking dirty about them—gets pretty easy after the first few tries. It also turns out, however, that if that’s all you’ve got to say, it’s probably not all that interesting after the first few tries, either. If it’s just showing your lady parts and talking dirty, once you get beyond the fetishes, the basic message is just, “Lady parts are hot, and, P.S., I like sex.” Hardly a revelation.

I need to reexamine my original idea of creating a blog I’d want to read. Because, while I’d be turned on by my pics (obviously—they show my fetishes) they alone wouldn’t make me bookmark the page, and return to it again and again. I have to remember my original inspiration if I want to create a read that I would find compulsive. Because, let’s face it, if I’m not obsessed by it, no one else will be.

I have to remember that I wanted to know how it feels to get into porn. I wanted to know what it’s like to have a body purposefully shaped and sculpted, obsessively groomed for nothing other than porn and sex. What’s it like to go to a day job with bulging muscles burning from that morning’s workout, feeling that sweet ache all day long, knowing that each secret twinge brings me closer to my erotic goal—a goal none of my friends or coworkers suspect. To know that under my business clothes is a sexy superhero’s body, hidden like a secret identity.

I wanted to know what it was like to be consumed sexually. I wanted to know what it was like to know that people fantasized about me. To have people so excited by me that they send me unsolicited pictures of their erect cocks, wet cunts. I wanted to know what it’s like to have a stranger shoot pictures of me, to direct me in a video in which I masturbate. Could I get aroused on camera? Could I come? Could I squirt? I wanted to know what it’s like to kiss and fuck a woman, a female bodybuilder, even, as my husband watches. I wanted to know what it was like to be in a bondage movie, submitting to a dominatrix. What would I do if she commanded it? Would I dare to find out?

I want this blog to answer all those questions—and many more. The deeper, more secret questions, too, the ones I’m not ready to reveal to you, or maybe even to myself. The pictures and the videos? They’re sexy, I hope, but they’re only meant to be illustrations of the real content, which is the exploration of the ideas and urges that led me to create Rikochanpornstar in the first place. This coming year I’m going leave the easy path, the usual path. I’m ready to see where the other path—the wild, unknown path—leads me. I hope you’ll come with me.

7 Comments

  1. I’d commented before that I came to your blog because you addressed my particular fetishes, and stayed because I was charmed by your writing. There’s a lot more here than just you being sexy. You’re careful not to reveal your identity, but you reveal so much of who you are, and not just through photos. You write about how shy you used to be and the things that helped open you up. I love that you write about having a secret “superhero body”, because you do, but you have a superhero spirit also. My little sister (wisest person I know) always says that you don’t have to act big to win, but you have to know, inside, that you can. Confidence, I guess. Seeing the progress of your confidence is pretty amazing.

    I have a friend who reminds me of you, a fearless world-traveler. Born in China, she’s lived just about everywhere and approaches life hungry, willing to try anything, and full of love. I admire and adore her bravery, and I feel like her adventures in travel are similar to your adventures in the world of adult entertainment. There’s a lot to gain and to lose, and I love your passion for exploration.

    Just wanted you to know that even if you start small, your honesty, courage and enjoyment of what you do are things to be proud of.

    • I’m so glad that you like the writing! I don’t have time to do as much of it as I would like, so it’s really nice to hear that it’s appreciated. You’re right, and so is your sister about confidence, and how I’m getting more and more of it these days. I never thought I could do some things I did this year. I plan to do a lot more next year!

      Thanks!

  2. Love the mystery environment you give with your mask, by preventing your face to be seen. Honestly I don’t care to see your true face because I know I have to respect the privacy of others. “Treat others as you wish to be treated!” Sadly, I usually don’t end up trated like I want to…

    Yeah I know, everyone has its share of hard times. I’ve have my own almost always, specially how things are going in my country. And yet I see you are doing so positive! Wish my past summer and fall had been like that.

    Just like Red, I am amazed and love how much you express your sexual desires; without the fear of being seen as something wrong; and that even your husband is OK with this. And I am amazed you actually want to try and taste bondage, since I tought you were into light electro stuff; I tought you wouldn’t like heavy stuff.

    And thing is, I would love to do many of the things you’ve said! I didn’t knew people sent you their erections!? Because I’ve had the fantasy of sending pictures or videos of it to women who make me horny! And truth is I wish I could have sex with you as I feel your strong hard body around me! If not; I wish to at least touch your abs, feel your biceps (maybe hang from them too 🙂 ) and touch or even lick your long & hard clit. Or at least masturbate in front of your naked body. Though sometimes guilt comes to me that you already have a husband, and I have a policy of not going out with married women; but my guess is that everything seems to be OK with him, so maybe.

    Because I love how you 2 get along so well that I really never want to see nor hear of both of you being separated or something! Besides, I am looking for that one in my life, someone who would wake all the good inside of me.

    That is why I asked if it was possible for me to contact you directly to your e-mail, as I want to write something as long almost like an essay and your questions site has little space for characters. Because I would like to know if you 2 can help me in how to find a japanese girlfriend adecuate for me. Or at least the right girl for me. You see, I believe that among the reasons why japanese girls are not interested in me is beacuse I am a gaijin, “not american/european,” and coming from a third world hell hole that has no hope.

    I must also do everything in my power to be strong! But I still wonder if I should still follow my dreams… I feel like time is against me, and that I have wasted the time I’ve had.

    Well that is it for now. Sorry if my post made you feel sad or something, but please don’t be! Keep up reaching hard for your goal and never give up nor surrender!

    • Wow, that is a lovely, sexy comment. I don’t know how I will like bondage, but if I can try it in a safe and fun way, I’m definitely going to! This year is going to be all about experiencing (and taking pictures and videos of) new things.

      Yes, you can definitely contact me directly. My address is rikochanpornstar at gmail.com. You can email me pictures there, too, including naughty ones! 🙂

      xoxo

      Riko

  3. riko, you define sexy on so many levels i can’t even count them, or would even want to. I’m very much into what you do, and how you do it, and have always been since way back when you first started posting on newart. I’m in here for the long haul!!

  4. RIKO!!!! I love you! I love your husband, and i love everything you’re doing! I would lick your feet if told to do so, you have the most awesome pussy online and the most awesome attitude! I wish there were 10 of me because they’d all be fans! give me more video i will buy them up.

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