Slutty Nic Pumps up my clit to get it ready for a good sucking
When you’ve got a clit as big as mine, you get oral sex–a lot of it. When you have a huge clitoris, you never, ever have to ask for it, once they’ve seen it–in my experience, at least. People who want to to be with me generally want to suck on my clit, and I’m more than happy to let them.
Does that look like it would be nice to lick and kiss?
Everyone Has Seen My Giant Clit By Now
I suppose if I ever met sex partners who hadn’t seen the literally thousands of pictures of my clit that are out there floating around the internet–either as Rikochan or from the days that I was (even more of) an amateur, under the name Krakette–or who hadn’t see one of my 100+ big clit clips, it might be a different case. It’s possible my little she-dick might turn off some guys or girls , I guess. I think if I ever sex with someone who doesn’t know about it ahead of time, I guess I’d warn them. (To be honest, I don’t really see that happening very often, though. I have regular partners, and the news I add every once in a while all people I’ve met as Rikochan.
I’m always happy to help by pulling back the hood of my huge clitty
My Shocking Clit
I do hear from women now and then who have had guys freak out on them because they had a larger than average clitoris or prominent labia (yum!). And, honestly, people are sometimes a little stunned and amazed in the face of all my clitoral majesty, even if they knew what they were getting into. I’ve seen that happen several times. Slutty Nic, who is giving me such lovely licking in this series of posts, was definitely surprised by the reality of it, despite being forewarned. My friend Yuka, too, had seen my pictures well ahead of time, but even so, she was amazed by my anatomy.
Sucking is nice, but so is licking! Nic is a very good licker, with a talented tongue.
You can see and hear it, especially in our first clip together, When Riko Met Yuka. Even though she’d seen pictures and clips, she was still shocked when it came time to take it into her mouth and really suck on it. But in Yuka’s case, and in every case I can think of, even the most dazed-by-my-enormity of my partners has recovered and dived right in to sucking, licking, and generally worshipping my clit. Honestly, I think Yuka was more shocked by how much and how often I squirted while she was playing with me, but squirting is a whole other story!
My clit glans is sooooo sensitive, and Nic knows just how to lick it.
It’s shocking, sure but it’s also like a challenge, and enticement, a seduction. It’s like…have you ever heard the word dickmatized–hypnotized by dick? With me, people sometimes get clitmatized! I can’t tell you how many times I’ve had people tell me, after seeing my clit, either in person or via email after seeing pics and videos, I never knew I had a big clit fetish until I saw yours. I’m a convert now!
I love the look on Nic’s face, eyes closed and con
Yes, I have heard my share of “Oh my god, I can’t believe it!” And “Is this cunnilingus or a blowjob?” Or even, “Does this make me gay?” (Only you can answer that, my friend!). Without exception, though, every single time I’ve heard that, it has come when my partners are coming up for air, or catching their breath after I’ve squirted all over their faces. And then they’ve always gone right back to it, like it was a huge blunt and they hadn’t smoked in a month.
I need a new woman friend to shoot pics and videos like this with me…any takers?
I sometimes feel just a little sorry for people who don’t have big clits, not because small clits aren’t also cool (all clits are amazing and wonderful), but instead because it might mean that they don’t don’t get to experience the oral-sex magnet effect that I get. Yes, I know, not everyone likes to get oral sex, and that’s fine! To each their own.
Of course, I don’t really know what it’s like for people who don’t have big clits, since I’ve always had one. Maybe they also have people desperate to give them head? If they want it, I hope they do have people wanting to give it to them. Pussies of all shapes and sizes are gorgeous and amazing and wonderful, of course. I know that I personally have love, love, loved every one I’ve ever gotten to play with, regardless of clit size. Still, I can’t help but think that, as someone who regularly gets people all over the world tellling me they want to worship my clit, that I might be a little luckier than average?
Do you wish you could give me oral? Have you ever dreamed of it? Tell me all about it in the comments!
I don’t know if my clitty has ever looked bigger and fatter than it does in this shot…
Hey everyone! I just wanted you to know that Rikochan Studios (not a real studio-yet) posted a new video a few days ago! I think it’s going to be fun for anyone who likes my big clit pumping Rikochan erotica–it’s like ten minutes solid alternating between pussy pumping and nipple play. My clit gets absolutely huge in this one! But that’s not the reason that I love it! It’s called Rikochan’s New Clit Pumping Project, and I hope you’ll all like it too.
The feeling of my huge clit growing and swelling and stretching…heavenly!
Here’s why: As I’ve said many times, most of what I make on Rikochanpornstar.com goes straight back into buying stuff to make it better. Some years I net a little money, most of the time I take a loss. Of course, someday I’d love for this to be a big money spinner, but for now, I spend the money to make better Rikochan erotica videos, to make better pictures, to hire new people to shoot with, to pay for hosting, to buy new wardrobe, and to buy new toys. This time I spent money on toys.
it’s not just about the clit, of course, it’s also the pink pussy!
It’s All About the Toys
It’s a not a sex toy, though, sorry! This time it’s a new ring light for my camera. These things are seriously cool…the light that they provide is so even and gorgeous…I’m pretty sure some of the selfie queens on IG use them, but I found them from watching Japanese AV. I always thought they looked so beautiful with their lighting even in their weird cheap gonzo porn with handheld video cameras, and I couldn’t figure out how they did it!
My clit gets so sensitive that I can barely touch someyimes when I touch it
Finally, though I noticed that in a lot of the close-ups, you can see a ring-shaped light reflected in the eyes of the stars! So, I google ring light, and the rest is history. The one I bought is on the cheap side, and occasionally you can actually see it in the edge of the frame in this new video, but I don’t think it really detracts too much…might even give it a funky new guerrilla Rikochan erotica/porn look.
The Future of Rikochan Erotica?
This is great and all, but I’m so frustrated about having to basically just reinvent/reverse engineer everything when it comes to making video. I’m seriously thinking of taking some film-making classes, if I can find some that are right for me at my weird advanced beginner level! If anyone knows of any porn-friendly film schools or classes (casual or formal) in the NYC area, please let me know!
There’s also some nice nipple pumping and nipple play in this one!
I’m thinking of maybe setting up a gofundme for it. I don’t know, is that too…gofundme-ish? I feel like there are some of you, at least who would really get your money’s worth if you invested in Rikochan Studios, or whatever I end up calling it…
Anyhow, that’s just a dream for the moment. Right now, I’m already putting out my advanced beginner porn, and you should really check out the latest one, Rikochan’s New Clit Pumping Project!
I don’t think anyone has ever made my legs look better than this!
Hi everyone, this is just a quick post to share a few very different pictures of myself! I’m always so excited to be able to work with pros on their projects, according to their vision, and especially when I get to work with Mayumi of Mayumism, shooting a little muscle art!
These pictures are obviously very different from my usual hardcore/gonzo/amateur shots, and that’s a good thing! While I absolutely believe that porn is (or at least can be) an art form, there are all different kinds of art, and it’s nice to show up in a different sort of art–muscle art! I know some of you will be disappointed that these shots don’t show the goods, but maybe some others will be excited, like I was, by the composition, the photographer’s eye, her and so on. I always feel that way when I shoot with Mayumi.
I don’t usually like shots of my booty, but I approve of this one!
As an added bonus, I’m sure that at least a few of you will be happy because of the legs and feet in the triangular shot…drop me a comment if you liked this one, foot-fetish fans! I’m a little embarrassed by my somewhat jacked-up feet, but every time I post a foot shot, leg art shot, or a booty shot, there are definitely more people than I would expect out there loving them, which always makes me very happy.
Anyhow, I’ve shot several times in the past for Mayumism, and I’ve always had an amazing experience. Mayumi is fun, respectful, funny, and smart person to work with, and she keeps the comfort of the woman she’s shooting (I think she mostly shoots women lately) at the center of everything. Being a model is hard work, but I always feel like she’s pampering me somehow, always conscious of the time, the temperature, how long it’s been since our last break.
If you’re looking to do a shoot and you’re a little bit nervous about it, Mayumi is definitely a good choice! And, if you’re looking to shoot a little muscle art, don’t worry, she definitely likes hardbodies!
Note that except for the first shot, which goes to Mayumism.com, the rest of the links in this post all go to posts that include at least one shot of me by Mayumi!
I’m interrupting my normal sexy chat to talk a little bit about sex workers’ rights, sex workers’ safety, and the right to post and consume porn online–all of which are at risk right now, thanks to the terrible new FOSTA/SESTA law. So, yes, enjoy this second set of pictures of me having an amazing time playing with Slutty Nic. But also read the post and think about what you’re willing to do to protect your right to actually see enjoy my porn. Are you willing to stand up for sex workers’ rights? Because that’s what it will take to keep sex workers safe, and to keep sites like Rikochanpornstar online.
Who Is a Sex Worker?
The fact that that is one of my most popular tweets–even more than most of my nudest of nudes–makes me happy and a tiny bit proud, because sex workers’ rights are incredibly important. I’m a sex worker, and I’m standing up for myself and all the people who do the kinds of things I do, whether it’s full service sex work/escorting, stripping, wrestling/sessioning that crosses over in sex work (not all of it does), web-camming, fin-domming, domination, sugar-babying, old-school feature-film porn, or just plain clips and pics porn, like I make.
Lots of gorgeous things to look at in this shot, amirite?
In fact, even burlesque dancers figure into this, as far as I am concerned, although some of them don’t consider themselves sex workers. Still, given the number of laws there are regulating what they can’t and can’t do with their bodies and what the can’ and can’t show of their bodies on stage tells me that, in terms of rights, at least, they count.
I’m a Sex Worker
I consider myself a sex worker. I make money from being (hopefully) sexy in front of cameras and video cameras. I have sex (by myself and with other people) on camera, and I sell the clips, at least, for money. I’m a sex worker, and I work for myself, and I enjoy it, and I’m proud of the work that I do and I’m proud of the pleasure and enjoyment it brings to my small but dedicated (and awesome!) group of fans and friends.
To be clear, I’m a sex worker, but I’m not a *full-service* sex worker. No one pays me to have sex with them. I don’t do any in-person services, but that’s not because I look down on that part of sex work or the people who do it. Far from it: I think that is an amazing profession that I’m sure provides true help, relief and human connection to a lot of people and satisfies and entertains many more. Some of the people that I’m proudest to call my friend do this kind of work. I’m only clarifying here because I don’t want to be claiming authority I don’t deserve.
Nic couldn’t believe how long my big clit got in the tube!
Me, I’m too shy to do it. Part of it is my English, which doesn’t sound nearly as good in person, without someone to correct my grammar (yes, I have a couple people who help me fix all the mistakes in most of what I write). Mostly, though, I’m so shy and awkward in person, I haven’t even been able to do camming yet, although I do have an account on MusclegirlzLive.
But I’ve written about all that before. The point here, and the point that is new (and bad) is that there are laws out there now that are attacking sex workers under the pretense of stopping human trafficking. Look, I agree that trafficking is bad, but the idea that all sex workers are trafficked is just ridiculous, and the idea that laws like SESTA/FOSTA help trafficked people is just plain stupid. FOSTA/SESTA hurts sex workers.
Shutting Down Backpage Hurts Sex Workers
All these laws do is make life far, far worse for sex workers, by forcing the closure of *sites like Backpage that make sex workers safer*. That’s right: the internet made life safer for sex workers by making it easier for them to contact, advertise, and screen for clients without an intermediary (that is, a pimp). For sex workers with access to the internet, at least, backpage and other services like bad client lists and so on, make sex workers safer.
The tube got a little foggy, but this is still a pretty nice shot of my clit, right?
What about trafficking? Well, for one thing, despite all the headlines, Backpage’s founders weren’t hit with any federal trafficking charges. Instead, their federal charges and pleas all have to do with prostitution–sex work. And sex work and trafficking are not at all the same thing, as much as the rescue industry would like to pretend they are. These new laws are erasing all the progress that the internet brought to sex work, which was their goal all along. While many tragically duped people may actually believe that these laws are “rescuing” people, that couldn’t be any farther from the truth. The people who really pushed these laws did so for two reasons.
One of my favorite clit-licking shots (of me) ever. Such a pretty girl, such a big clit!
Who’s Really Behind the Anti-Trafficking Movement?
The first group are the Moral Majority types who want to criminalize all sex work (and not just the full-service kind). These are the fundamentalists and the people who want to control sexuality–and especially women’s sexuality. These are the religious zealots and the subset of feminists who think that anyone who does sex work is a victim. Note: it’s a subset of radical feminists who are against sex work–there are many who think women are fully human being who ought to be able to choose for themselves what they do with their bodies.
The second group are in some way even more disgusting: the people (even including some most supposedly liberal politicians, like Bernie Sanders Kamala Harris), who do it for the soundbites, to advance their careers, despite the fact that sex workers have begged, literally begged them not to pass these laws.
Why Should YOU Care About Sex Workers’ Rights?
If you’re a patron of full service sex work, the answer is obvious. Your provider will be harder to reach, may have to charge more to make up for lost income and time, and may, in fact, be killed in the new climate.
She was AMAZED when I pulled the hood back on my giant clit
Even if you’re not a patron of full-service sex work, however, you ought to be very, very worried. You, as a consumer of porn (I’m making the leap that everyone who visits my site regularly is *mostly* here for the porn, even if they also enjoy my writing), ought to be terrified. The same weird coalition of religious zealots and radfems are already pushing to use the same strategy, with the same dupes leading the charge for them, against all sorts of pornography.
We’re already seeing the same arguments that women in porn are exploited and trafficked, and all it takes is a little bit of panic and the hint of legal action to get the wheels rolling and to get scared companies to start shutting down sites and stop processing cards and deleting porn from social networks like Tumblr and Twitter. It really wouldn’t take much for a waves of shutdowns to completely change the face of online porn. My site, and all the pictures on it and the sites that host my clips–all of that could disappear overnight if the people who pushed FOSTA/SESTA get their way.
That’s it, lick all the way around the glans of my swollen clitoris…
What Can You Do to Help Sex Workers and Protect Porn?
So if you want to keep watching porn and you live in the US, please, please, please contact your congresspeople and tell them you are against censorship, and that you think FOSTA/SESTA is a bad bill and should be repealed. Beg them to stand up for free speech and not to be duped by the trafficking argument, please? Speak up when people say stupid things about porn, sex work, strippers, and so on.
The other thing you can do no matter where you live is to educate yourself and help educate others about the truths surrounding sex work. It’s not all fun and games, but then no job is. And, once you separate the panic from the reality, that’s what it is: a job. It can some times be amazing and rewarding, and sometimes be shitty and oppressive, like any job. For the most part, though, it’s the ignorance, panic, and shaming of the “rescue” crowd that makes sex work worse than it has to be, and that misinforms the mainstream, most of whom probably honestly believe that they’re helping when they support the banning of sites like Backpage.
Teaching sub girl Slutty Nic how to pump my big clitty
I’m so excited to be working with lovely, formal pictures again. There’s something very different to editing and posting pictures that were taken during an actual photoshop versus the ones that you take on the fly during actual sex sessions, especially when I get to work with photographers I love. I hope you like this set, Pumping Rikochan’s Clit, with my friend Slutty Nic, which I’ve posted some great shots of in the past.
Getting ready to make my big clit really huge!
Don’t get me wrong, I love, love, love the gonzo pictures (and videos) that come out of shooting while I’m actually getting fucked or pumped and so on, POV shots that either me or the person doing…things…to me take, as the opportunities come. There’s a real, exciting rawness to shots that come out of shoots like that, and those are by far the largest part of the shots I take and post online. That’s the stuff that feels real, and hardcore and that makes me wet and hot and bothered to look at and edit and post.
I love Slutty Nic’s pose in this one…perfect subby girl…
But then again, there’s something really satisfying about shoots that are planned out ahead of time, too; shoots with a wardrobe, and a set and a budget–and especially shoots with a costar! You get a different sort of feeling with that kind of shoot, whether it’s video or still, as is the case here with these shots of me and Slutty Nic. No, there aren’t any videos of me and Nic, who has since moved away, which makes me very sad! We just did that one shoot for stills. Maybe someday!
Getting into the real clit pumping action!
Pumping Rikochan’s Clit, Vintage Shots
Yes, these are older clit-pumping shots. I started posting pictures from this set about four years ago, with a post called Rikochan Gets Her Clit Licked by Slutty Nic. I’ve slowwwwwwwly been doling them out ever since. These are some of my most popular pictures ever, and I get amazing feedback every time I post a new group of pictures from this shoot.
I love the way clit pumping feels!
I’m going to be really sad when they’re all gone! I do the same thing with my shots of Yuka Ozaki and Mistress Treasure, by the way, sitting on pics for years. So if you’re a fan of my shoots with either of those two, yes, there’s more coming from those shoots too…
Slutty Nic has gorgeous boobs, I love playing with them!
Note that I’m a terrible model, it takes shooting hundreds and hundreds of shots just to get a handful of good ones. And, furthermore I’m so subby and submissive that it’s really hard to get a good out of me unless you’re really assertive and in control of the shoot. And, furthermore, I always maintain some anonymity in my shoots, which is an additional challenge for a photographer, I think. For all those reasons, it’s so much better if I can get a costar for a shoot, and a video, too. That’s why, for example, my videos with Yuka, Treasure, and Lady Clarece are so exciting to shoot, and, I think, watch.
This is the real payoff of a clit pumping session: taking a break part way through to get licked as I’m getting nice and swollen!
And that’s why I’m working to set up some shoots with some people that I met via my Twitter, Tumblr, and Fetlife profiles, hopefully as early as May. Keep an eye out for more from this set, soon. I hope to have some news to announce soon! Also, I’m going to be posting lots more picture from this set, Pumping Rikochan’s Clit, over the next few days.
Today it’s all about the nipple pumping! Ugh, this felt so good. As always, click the pictures for full-sized versions!
Here are some pumped nipples to say Happy April, everyone! I feel like the long horrible winter is just about over (although there is snow coming here again tomorrow, WTF!), and I’m feeling creative and sexy and horny again for the first time in a long time. Yay! You know that that means lots of porn and sexy stories to share here and clips for my store, right? The first bit is to finish off this photoset, which gets serious now with one of my favorite kinds of sex play ever, nipple pumping!
Look at the drop of milk on the tips of my pumped nipples!
I spent longer than usual with pumped nipples for this little photoshoot–completely unplanned. I pumped the hell out of my nipples thinking that was what I was going to shoot a little bit of, and then I noticed that these panties were good for a clit bulge shoot and spent forever trying to get good shots of that. (It turns out they were too tightly elastic to really let my clit extend to its full magnificence.)
Ugh, I want to to pump until I start lactating!
By the time I got back to paying attention to my poor nipples, they had begun to leak little droplets of milk! I can’t tell you how exciting that is for me…like, it’s actually a sex dream I have had, that I take a special drug, or am forced to take a special drug, or am milked like a cow so often and so forcefully, or am under a spell…all so that my breasts swell, and swell, and swell, and I begin lactating.
My pumped nipples are so sensitive I can barely stand to have them touched.
As you can see, my pumped nipples got so big and hard and swollen they looked like hentai anime nipples! When I got the tubes off, they were so hard they didn’t even feel like flesh, they were as hard as rocks! And yet, so much, much more sensitive than normal, despite not feeling real. I couldn’t stand to touch them with anything but the lightest, most feathery of touches, just barely brushing them with what would have been a ticklish caress was like shooting electricity right into them (I know, because I used to be really into electrostim!)
Getting my nipples pumped makes my clit rock-hard!
Even a mouth on my nipples was too much to bear unless it was just the lightest of butterfly kissing and the very softest of sucking, barely a hint of suction, and light mouthing of my poor, aching, bursting pumped nipples with the lips. As you can see, my clit got amazingly swollen, just as a result of having my nipples pumped. In the picture above, that’s my clit with absolutely no stimulation, pumping or even fingering. I just pulled aside the yellow panties, and, boing!, there she was…
These things can definitely poke your eyes out!
Anyhow, that’s my latest photoset! I think there’ll be more again soon. I know I’ve been neglecting all my various porn outlets for a while, but at least when I deliver it’s something pretty good, right? Well, I’ve got some pretty good things planned for the next little while, too, so please don’t give up on me!
One last pumped nipple picture to say goodbye…for now!
Hey everyone, I’m back again, and I brought your favorite: porn! I don’t have any new video to share yet, but I thought some of you, at least, would appreciate this crop of pictures because it scratches in places that I know some of you are pretty itchy: especially the panty bulge!
This is a weird picture. I’m pretty fat, and yet also you can see my abs starting to take shape, I guess? Oh, and also: nipple pumping!
I bought these funky yellow panties in Tokyo at the M’s Pop Life sex department store in Akihabara. I love that place: seven floors of porn, lingerie, costumes, sex toys, lube, lotions, and pretty much every kind of (legal) adult goods you can imagine. My only complaint about M’s is that the store offers such a typically Japanese range of sizes for its lingerie and costumes. The last time I was there, most of clothing was only available in size M, which if you’ve never lived in Japan equates to very, very small in US sizes. Far, far to small for me to wear, for example.
More Nipple Pumping! Seriously, this is the best feeling in the world. I don’t know how nursing mothers even deal, it feels so good.
Granted, I am now basically a giant in Japan, both because of my muscles and because of my fat. I am by far the largest of my friends now, even bigger than the ones who are much chubbier than I am, because none of them have any muscle whatsoever. I’m. Just. Huge. And that’s fine; I have no desire to look like my old Japanese friends, who mostly now have saggy or bony asses and little bird-person chests.
More panty bulge goodness. I need to get less elastic panties to show off the bulge better next time…
But even though I’m big, it’s not like I’m the biggest person in Japan, by far. It makes me a little bit sad that people my size and bigger don’t have many sexy options for clothes in Japan. My main money-spending goal for my last trip to Japan was to get all kind of cool Japanese fetish gear so that I could have fun, different stuff to wear in my photos and videos, but hardly any of it fit me. Even these yellow panties are really kind of too tight. I love them, and they are a weird, sexy texture, but I wish they were a little looser!
Another body shot. I guess I can see some changes/improvement. I don’t hate this shot, anyhow.
Anyhow, this shoot is all about the panty bulge and the nipple pumping, obviously, and I think those are both things that a lot of my fans and friends enjoy, right? I know I do. Bulges are sooo cool. One of my favorite instagram accounts is Worldclitfitness, which is a female bodybuilder site that focuses on shots that show off the bulge. You should totally follow it if you love the bulge (and follow me, too, of course!)
Mmm, pumped nipples. During a break in the middle of the pumping session. You have to take some breaks to play with the parts under suction, and also so that you don’t get blisters…
I have to shoot something especially for them soon, they’re particular about the kinds of shots they like to publish, and I don’t quite have the right shot for them yet. I’m really hoping to get a shot on there someday soon, though!
Check out this old pic I found from 2011! I don’t even have that spinner bike anymore…
Hi everyone! Thanks to everyone who wrote or commented over the past few months, to everyone who hit me up on Twitter and Facebook, and to everyone asked on Instagram. I’m fine, and I’m still in love with the idea of making porn! I just got busy with other stuff, that’s all. But it’s good stuff, and it will help me to have more time to work on my porn and my bodybuilding, I hope, in the long run! I’m touched that so many people reached out, and this is a big part of why I write here, and why I share so many thought and pictures here!
Anyhow, I know you all want to see new stuff, but I’ve been really bad about shooting lately, wah! I’ve got all this cool new equipment I haven’t even ever used! There are a few shots and shoots I’m going to get up here, but, first I just wanted to share an old shot I found on a very, very old SD card I found! I’m cleaning my place and purging my junk, and I keep turning up more old treasures and cards and hard drives! This ones’ so old that it’s only 4GB! I was hoping there would be more treasures on it, but there was only this and few out of focus pictures of my old cat, who has long since gone to kitty nirvana.
I thought some of you might like to see what my legs and clitty looked like SEVEN years ago, in 2011. I’d have to say I’m a little disappointed that my legs look about the same, I think. I guess I have to take a similar new picture to do a real comparison, but just looking I don’t think I’m much bigger now! I must have been lifting pretty hard at that point, though, because my hands and forearms are super veiny! If you’re interested in muscle pictures, you can see a bunch that I haven’t posted here on my Instagram! That’s where I post all my pics from the gym. One thing’s for sure, my picture taking skills have improved a little since then, though, no?
My instagram is basically full of pics of me squatting and occasionally deadlifting. Head there for that!
My clitty…well, it’s hard to tell! I’m not sure how erect she is here, but she’s definitely not at her biggest. What do you think? Have I grown since then? Must be hundreds and hundreds of hours of pumping since then…
Anyhow, I just wanted to say thanks for all the good wishes, and stay tuned for more stuff this weekend!
Oh, one other thing: In case you didn’t know, I have been slowly uploading old stuff to my iwantclips.com page, where I often have sales! My main store and the place where I post things first is still my clips4sale studio, but you might save a little money on old stuff if you check out IWC, too!
I’m getting bigger and stronger and it makes me feel so damned powerful and sexy.
I made a bunch of resolutions for this year, but not many of them are sexy and fun–most are about school, housing, and money. One thing I think most of my readers will be happy to hear, however, is that I’m determined to work harder than ever on my fitness in 2018. I’m getting stronger this year! I made a lot of progress last year, especially in the second half of the year, and this year I’m completely committed to doing even better.
My upper body always lagged behind my lower body, but it’s starting to catch up.
Getting Stronger Physically
I have an amazing new trainer that I worked with for a few months last year, and she has really helped me improve both my form and my programming, and most of all she’s helped me get serious about diet again. Not that I didn’t already eat better than most of my peers and many of the people I know who work out, but there’s no doubt that I needed to eat more of some things and less of other things to both grow my muscles and shrink my fat. I’ve lost over 20 pounds in the last few months, and yet I’ve never been stronger! I never believed that getting stronger while losing weight was possible, but it definitely is.
I’m starting to get a little tiny bit of ass, maybe. It’s been a struggle!
I want to be so damned big and strong. I these pictures to be my “before” shots and I want people to look at them and say, damn, girl, I can’t believe you were ever that small! I saw a picture of Alina Popa like that yesterday. She’s so much smaller than she is now, she looks tiny…she weighs only 125 lbs even though she is actually more muscular than I am now! Although, actually I weigh more than she did in that picture by more than 10 pounds, so who knows. It’s very, very hard to judge your own size, especially when you have some kind of body dysmorphia, as I have had.
I’m getting a little bit more in the way of quads, too!
Getting Stronger Mentally
As I am both getting stronger and getting leaner, I get more confident in my body, and my self, and my sexuality. I don’t think it’s all just about pride in my appearance, though, to be honest, although looking the way you want to look certainly makes you feel sexier, prouder, and braver in my experience. Really, though, it’s as much about the feeling of control. It’s the same feeling I got when I was very, very thin. I was. And it was a control thing. I could control my body, and that made me feel…good. Even though, of course, I was basically dying, destroying my body. It was the control that made me feel so confident and sexy. The idea that I was who I chose to be, even if that person wasn’t a healthy one. That’s a very powerful idea, when you grew up feeling like your body, your sexuality, and your whole life were all out of your control.
Anyone’s muscular legs looks pretty great in fishnets, I think.
Of course, these days I like to think that I’m on a healthier path, but I’m still all about the control. These days, though, it’s about sculpting my body. I’m determined that my physical self should reflect the new strength of my mental self. I’m more interested in being bigger, and stronger, and harder. I want my outer self to look as tough and disciplined as I’m trying to be with inner self.
I love how huge my leg looks in this! Not to mention my clit, of course. Look at its shadow!
The fact is, however, that for me that striving for strength still involves a certain need to punish my body. I like the idea of working so hard that I’m sore the next day, not just for the fact that it means that I’m growing my muscles, but also for the fact that it represents my ability to impose my will on my body, to work it to the point where there’s a little bit of pain. It’s a kind of masochism, I suppose. I don’t want to damage myself, but…I suspect it might be similar to the way people get a certain sense of relief and satisfaction from cutting themselves. I feel that pain because I caused that pain, and that’s a kind of control.
Getting closer to the part you’re most interested in?
I’m trying to be more about the sculpting and the growth these days than I am about the pain and the weight loss. I’m mostly succeeding, too, though I won’t say that it doesn’t feel really, really good to have lost 20 pounds in the last few months. That said, when I look at pictures for inspiration and to train my brain to see things in new ways, I connect more with the pictures I’m looking at of Alina Popa at 200 lbs than the one I linked to earlier, where she weighed 75 pounds less. I can picture myself at that size, with that much muscle and that “off-season” look. My brain is changing, and my idea of strong is changing, too. I’m getting stronger.
Is this what you came here for? I hope you like it!
So that’s my belated thought for 2018. I won’t call it a New Years’ resolution because it’s so late, and because I don’t believe in them, anyhow. They’re too artificial and too forced. That said, I do believe in taking stock of my goals every now and then, and this is one that I’ve been working on for a while, one that I’ve been making progress on lately. I hope that my new physique starts to show up in pictures here, more often, as well as my Instagram and my clips studio. I’d love to hear your thoughts on the changes, and any encouragement you have as well! Leave me a comment, if you like!
Check out those prices…some more than 50 percent off through New Years Day!
Yes, that’s right, I’m expanding…and I don’t just mean pumping my clit! I’m growing my online presence this coming year. That’s my main resolution for 2018…to be more active online, in more places, and to expand the range and reach of the porn I’m making.
Rikochan on iWantClips
The first thing that means is appearing in more places online, and I’ve already started that by expanding from just selling on clips4sale. I plan to start up a manyvids store soon, and I have already gotten a head start: Just this week, I opened a new Rikochan iWantClips Porn Studio! There aren’t too many big clits on iWantClips, so maybe I can do well there?
Some of you may have already seen the tweets my store automatically puts out, with sexy samples of the videos, on my Twitter account–if you don’t follow me there, you really, really should. I post on there every day. It’s the best place to chat with me online. No direct messages unless you’re writing me about work. Just @ me and I will do my very best to get back to you, if you have something cool or interesting or nice to say.
Rikochan New Year’s Sale
You may also have noticed that although there aren’t very many clips on there yet, they are pretty cheap. In fact, through New Year’s Day, every clip on iWantClips will be just $5! After that, the prices are going back up, but I thought this would be a good way to get people to come by and check out my new store. It’s actually the first time I’ve ever done a sale. If it works out, maybe it won’t be the last!
I’ll be adding my back catalog there slowly, in some cases in improved quality, and nearly always with better compression. If there’s a particular old clip you’d like to get your hands on. please be sure to let me know and I’ll do my best to get it converted and uploaded over there.
I have other plans for 2018, but nothing is solid enough that I can really tell you about it, yet. Too many things fell through over the past couple of years, and I’d rather tell you about them when they are shot and in production, but I can tell you that I have plans to shoot for couple of studios that I really admire, that I have a couple new photographers that I’m really excited to shoot with, and a few costars that I am beyond excited to work with!
I hope you have a great and safe New Year’s Eve, and that you get to spend it in whatever way is right for you…