I made a big squirting mess when I played with my dildo on Saturday night!
I’m so happy to tell you, the pervy fans of my huge-clit videos, that my latest clip went up on my clips4sale studio last night. It’s a short one–the introductory part one of a set of two. It’s just five quick minutes long, but it’s jam-packed with me masturbating in black gloves, both jacking my clit and rubbing it with my favorite glass dildo. My clit is huge and hard in this, and there a lot of squirting at the end. I hope you like it. If you do, you’ll love the next part, which is something like 12 minutes long, and in which my clit is even bigger and harder and more sensitive after the first round or cumming in this clip. I know that I, at least, am very excited that this latest video is up. Why?
Well, first of all, it’s only been a month since my last video this time, instead of a year. I’m always thrilled when a new video goes up, and to be back in a bit of a groove is even better. I’m excited to imagine friends (and strangers!) downloading the latest clip and masturbating like crazy to it.
Nakedness (Beyond Nudity)
I can’t tell you how stimulating that is. If you’ve never made amateur porn, I can’t really explain how horny the idea that millions of people might enjoy you through it can make you. I mean it: millions. I have single clips on some sites that alone have gotten hundreds and hundreds of thousands of views. I don’t mean to sound like I’m a pro, jaded by my page views or whatever. I agonize over every shot, clip, and word. Sometimes I can’t bring myself to post something for weeks or even months after it’s basically done, obsessing over ever detail, or just being too insecure to hit the button. But, when I do finally do it…wow. There’s a feeling of nakedness far beyond nudity…there’s just nothing like it, short of trying some new kind of sex you’re dying for but terrified of. Every time. I feel like that every time I hit the “publish” button. And that’s why I do this.
How many cocks have been stroked to my crude little videos, how loads have been shot to my mediocre pictures, how many pussies and clits have been groped reading my little stories and fantasies? It’s crazy, because I know that my stuff is just simple and amateurish, and I’m pretty average (except for a few special extras). And that doesn’t matter a bit to me, or apparently, to the people who come back again and again to my stuff. That’s a big part of what I love about doing this.
Rikochan (not a) Pornstar
This isn’t false modesty; I’m not fishing for “no, you’re special” emails and comments. I’m really, really not particularly special, and I honestly think that’s part of why the people who like this site like it. The name Rikochanpornstar was always intended to be a joke, poking fun at the idea that plain old me could in any way be considered a “pornstar.” And I still firmly believe that. I’m just a regular Japanese woman living a regular life with a regular job. With a secret hobby. And, yes, a big clit.
My theory is that what’s maybe a little bit special about Rikochanpornstar.com is that I am an ordinary person who shares things things that other otherwise ordinary people like me wouldn’t share. I share my fantasies, my pictures, my videos, and my adventures. I mean, sure, I’ve had some adventures that maybe other people haven’t, but most of that came about because of me sharing my ordinary self on this site.
(No Such Thing as) An Ordinary Woman
In any case, I really don’t buy that all the other ordinary women out there are quite so vanilla. I think more of them have had adventures than we know. There are women just in my own circle of friends you might think of as boring, regular woman who have slept with dangerous people, who’ve had affairs, who’ve had threesomes; they’ve been to orgies, had one-night stands, and experimented with everything from swinging to bondage to bestiality. Some have their own unique anatomies (the enormous nipples on my one friend, post-nursing, I would die to suck on), others have flirted with prostitution, and I know an ex-exotic dancer, too. They’ve got their own fetishes, their own lingerie collections, their own toys, their own fuck-me shoes, their own boudoir photo sets…
Keep in mind, these are just my supposedly ordinary friends; these aren’t the new friends I’ve met through Rikochanpornstar. Those amazing women have a whole other level of amazing experiences that put mine to shame. These are just regular people, but with secrets that might surprise you. I don’t mean to paint these women (or women in general) as sexual daredevils . But enough of them have at least one or two secrets, that, if you knew them, maybe you wouldn’t think me all that special…except for the fact that I write about it. And take pictures. And make movies.
(Making) Porn Addiction
Yes, I make a lot of porn (and even some erotica). It turns out that making porn and blogging about it is seriously addictive. From the first very clit-pumping picture I shared as Krakette on a pumping forum nearly a decade ago, I immediately started to feel the pull of sharing just a little more, telling just a little more, showing jus ta little bit more. From there it’s not that big a step to trying new things, and, before you know it, you’re shooting sessions with female bodybuilders and contemplating making an amateur studio porn. Yeah, I’m thinking about it! There are some companies in Japan that would let me wear a mask and shoot me in a full-on porn DVD–maybe a muscle themed one or a BDSM one. I’d love to do one of the all-toy electrostim videos I’ve been watching lately. They’re super hot, and they have the advantage of being safe sex, as there is no boy/girl penetration.
But I’m getting off the point here. The point is that while I’m having more crazy adventures than some of my friends, most of the have at least one or two in them. I’m an ordinary woman, just like them. The difference is that I share my adventures, and, thanks to all the encouragement I get from you–my friends, my readers, my fans, my online family–I stretch a little further, try a little more, experiment a bit more freely than I otherwise might. I have to confess, there are definitely things that I’ve done that I almost didn’t do. I’m not that brave, really.
I get terribly shy and nervous, and I worry about consequences and outcomes and how I will feel about the experience later. And the thing that has pushed me over the edge, more than once? The thought that I’d be able to tell you all about it, here, that I’d have pictures to prove to you that I did it, that I’d have videos that you could all cum watching. Of course, I always do it first and foremost for myself; that’s the only reason you should ever do something so big and risky and potentially transformative. But there have been several occasions when I’ve been on the fence and it was that knowledge that I’d be able share, to brag, to get off knowing some of you are getting off…that’s what helped me decide.
So, this is all a very long way of saying that I’m glad to be sharing my videos again, and why. Because I’m a just a regular, ordinary woman, otherwise. Not that there’s anything so regular or ordinary about that.