My first very amateur pic, taken eight years ago and posted seven years ago. Back then I was going by the name Krakette, but I think you can recognize me by my big clitty.
I can’t believe it: It’s been seven years since I posted my first picture of my big clitty on the Internet. Actually, that sentence not quite accurate in two ways. First, it’s been more than seven years: my first clit-pumping picture went online on Jan 29, 2006. Second, I didn’t post it. Kraka posted it for me–with my permission.
I think I’ve written about this before: Kraka and I had been pumping my clit and nipples for over year at that point, thanks to us having discovered the pumping forum newart well before that. We’d enjoyed looking at the pictures and video there (especially the famous Superclit!) as part of our foreplay for a while, and then, eventually it led to us experimenting with pumping and me falling deeply in love with it.
At first, I was reluctant to post pictures. On the one hand, I really wanted to give back to the site; it had given so much to me. One the other hand, of course, there was the usual: how could I, a once very proper and uptight Japanese woman post nudes of myself, even in a forum that required a login? After all, if you post something on the Internet, it’s going to live forever! Once I posted my first nude picture, I would forever be a porn amateur.
If I’m really, really truthful with myself, however, the porn part of it wasn’t so much the problem; I had already been clit pumping for two years by the time I posted my first amateur picture. By then, I had already really gotten into sex toys and watching porn, and been exposed to quite a bit of really crazy, fun stuff online. And, there was never any question (at least in those days) of ever posting a picture that included my face.
What freaked me out was not the idea of people seeing my clitoris, my pussy, or my boobs–it was the idea of people seeing my body. The idea that people would see how fat I was, how out of shape–the idea that they’d see my bruises (I bruise easy) and my razor stubble and my flat ass, my wrinkles, my birthmarks…all my imperfections, basically. I didn’t look like the people in the porn I was watching, and was what made it so hard for me to make the leap of thinking of myself as someone who could make porn. At that time, we were watching pretty much mainstream porn, and lots of the Playboy Channel, for example. While I still love that kind of erotica, I realize now that it was an incomplete picture–something I didn’t get at the time.
When I talked to Kraka about it, he pointed out that even though plenty of people Newart were incredibly sexy, very few of them looked like Playboy models. And some, he showed me, had more of what I was ashamed of than I did–including many of the people whose pictures I found the sexiest. So–although on some level I suspected he was somehow tricking me, because who could want to see me, really?–I finally told him to post some pictures to pay back all the amazing people on the forum for introducing me to my first and still favorite fetish.
My condition was that he would never make me look at the thread! I didn’t want to see my pictures on the site, and I didn’t want to read the comments–we’d be paying back the site, but I was going to pretend it just wasn’t happening. I just couldn’t risk the idea of being humiliated by negative comments. Kraka offered to read me only the good ones, but I just felt safer having him promise I didn’t have to hear any of them.
And that was fine, until one day not long after, Kraka was sitting at the computer and started shouting and laughing. Our big clit pumping idol Superclit had posted a very nice comment! That was a real turning point for me; not only did I get encouragement from one of my heroes, but I also saw that my thread had a ton of page views, and the comments were pouring in. While it was several years before I made the leap to starting my own blog and opening my clips4sale site, Rikochan’s Fetish Emporium, that was really the start of it all.
So, I look back fondly on this first picture. It was taken eight years ago, and posted seven years ago. I kind of love it. I remember I shaved very carefully that night, because I was going to let kraka take some pictures. It wasn’t the first picture he’d taken, but the earlier ones horried me when I saw all the stubble. I’d been shaving for several years already because you really can’t pump your pussy or clit with a lot of hair–or at least I never could. And I had a LOT of very thick black hair. It’s mostly all been lasered off by now (one of the best things I ever did) but in those days, timing the shaving right was a big deal. Too often and you get razor burn; not often enough, you have serious stubble–and mine was so thick that it would scratch both of us! That day I had shaved and Krakette had touched me up with a razor in bed–a scary/fun kind of play in itself. I loved that pump–it’s broken now–and I still have that tube, although it’s all scratched up and doesn’t look so nice in pictures now.
I love to see how soft I looked in that picture. I mean, I sometimes look that fat now, but my body has changed considerably since then–these days, there’s a LOT more muscle under there. This picture hardly looks like me, to me.
Except, of course, for my enormous clit! I was shocked to see how big it already was, so early! People who know I’m a bodybuilder assume that that’s why my clit looks the way it does. But, at this point I was just a cardio bunny. Really lifting, and really considering myself a bodybuilder was years and years away. My clit was already quite big, but I didn’t remember quite how big it was until I was looking over my old pictures. It’s definitely gotten bigger, that’s for sure, after nine or ten years of pumping. What I understand now, though, is that the biggest change is in the unpumped size, not the pumped up size. When I’m not excited it’s still pretty small, but when I am get a lot of oral, it can get quite a bit bigger than it did all those years ago. Apparently, though, I was already able to pump it up nearly as big as it gets these days.
Anyhow, I think I’m going to go through all my old amateur pics and post them best of them here, with the complete run on my images4sale store, Rikochan’s Big Clit: there are nearly 700 of them! And I’ve got some old videos, too; those will probably show up, too.
Sorry for rambling, but this chance to look back at 7 years of my pictures really got me thinking. Hope you liked the picture and the story!